I Promise...

Speed of Light

2012-01-07T02:09:00.000+08:00

First post of the new year (imminent doom incoming?)

Had a hectic week or two, and I am really exhausted, though in a good way. First, my team and I had to rush to complete our analog game on time (codename Railway Magnate). Personally, I feel that it turned out really well, even though it is a tad similar to Monopoly Deal. The reason is because it is quite balanced for the amount of time we have put into the design of the game. Almost everything works the way it should, nothing seems too overpowered and we have had a lot of very close and exciting games even though one seemingly had a clear advantage. With more time and some additional layers into the game, I am pretty sure the game will be a hit (Farah already likes it a lot).

Secondly, I had to rush out the Character Design UT2 sketches and final composition. I made no secret of it, but I -absolutely- hate drawing, therefore I was not too enthusiastic about the assignment. I am not really happy with the final deliverable, but I probably had no choice, since I do not think I can draw any better. I might be able to fill it up better, but I do not think the quality can be improved exponentially.

Thirdly, I was 'nominated' to be the Student Ambassador for my diploma. It is an honor, yet a chore at the same time, because I am never really enthusiastic about such events. Nevertheless, I enjoyed the event somewhat, and it gave me the opportunity to really fit in with the year 2s. It got a little frustrating though, when there were like 8 volunteers at the booth and still they wanted me to present to the secondary school students. I do not mind, but I feel it is just dumb. Anyway, got to know a senior who apparently was in the JIT internship, but I did not even notice her (apparently she only showed up 3 times). She looks pretty good when she cosplays.

How time flies. In another 5 weeks, I would have finished my course in RP, and would be preparing to move on to (hopefully) greater things. I hope to get into either LucasArts (as a programmer *shudders*) or Ubisoft (as a ... competitive games analyst? I have no idea what role I am). My plan is to work there part time until I enter SIM in July (hopefully with lots of credits and scholarship to boot), and then I will slog my way through a second University stint. I will miss the atmosphere here... my usual banter with Jeremy Kang, Shaun Tay and TC, my friendship with my course mates and doing games in a somewhat relaxed atmosphere. Thinking back, I really really enjoyed my time here, and although there were a few downs here, there were definitely more ups while I was here, even though I was striving to keep my grades as well as possible.

I really appreciated the help and guidance each and every facilitator in RP has given to me. They have helped me a lot, sometimes even at the expense of their time (Li-Chuan comes to mind, he has always been supportive of my endeavours and always looked out for me). I am also appreciative of the many good friends I have made during my time here, especially my FYP team mates (Cally, Cayden and Jenn, we made a kick-ass game!) and also my Analog Game UT2 team (Yana, Satria, Joel and Eileen, though we struggled early on, we managed to pull it off and we really rock). Of course, I am not going to forget my best buddies, Nevin, Loy, Wee Kiat, Farhan, Isaac, Swee Hoe and probably others I have forgotten to mention.

Before I sign off, I had to link this!
Blocktris was featured in the RP Facebook page!

Without Me

2011-12-26T05:12:00.002+08:00

I guess being the festive season, I should be really blogging about how good this holiday has been but...

I believe you will be perfectly fine without me in your life.
Nothing (much) will change, perhaps just a few (less) SMSes here and there.
I have my goals and aims, and you have yours.
I know this is not an excuse; people in love should be accommodating of each other.

More importantly, deep down inside, I know you will be well taken care of.
I've come to know (actually quite a while ago), I am not the only one.
So, one less will probably not make a difference.

If anything, I blame life.
I blame life for putting me into the same exact position every time I decide to have someone else in my life.
I blame life for making me who I am, backing off whenever my (close) friends decide to take the initiative.
I blame life for not letting me know you earlier, so that things might have been different.

I want to keep loving you forever; my heart so desires.
However, I cannot keep my heart in turmoil, especially when I have things undone.
The last one took me 7 years before I finally moved on; I don't know how long this will take.
The earlier I tear myself off, the earlier I can start the healing process.

It may not even matter to you, but...
You'll always have a special place in my heart.
Peace, and may you be blessed with a life full of love and care.
I am sorry I may not be able to fulfil my promise to you.

死也不能放開你

2011-12-03T01:03:00.001+08:00

2AM - 死也不能放開你

竟使年幼也同样会伤痛
这世界我不懂但并非不懂得伤痛
说会没事的为什么要对我说谎
这么伤痛的心怎么会简单就变好
如果没有了你我怎么活下去呢
因为我

死也不能放开你（放开）我怎么能放开你（放开）
如果要走要离开我让我收拾好心情（收拾）
或许不会痛了我还能活下去
如果不行反正是不能活下去
死也不能放开你

无论你怎么把我推开
到最后都会抓住你让你哪里都不能去
如果真的想走请你说谎吧
说着明天会再见面微笑着看着我
说着想分手是玩笑的话如果不我

死也不能放开你（放开）我怎么能放开你（放开）
如果要走要离开我让我收拾好心情（收拾）
或许不会痛了我还能活下去
如果不行反正是不能活下去
死也不能放开你

那么长的时间都一起度过了
现在独自一人要怎么活下去
这样子做不到我做不到

死也不能放开你（放开）

死也不能放开你（放开）我怎么能放开你（放开）
如果要走要离开我让我收拾好心情（收拾）
或许不会痛了我还能活下去
如果不行反正是不能活下去
死也不能放开你

Whatever...

2011-11-20T21:04:00.001+08:00

Whatever the outcome will be, I just want you to know...

I will be here for you.

心想

2011-11-18T01:32:00.001+08:00

我始终还是放不下你，不停地为你担心。

Taking The Plunge

2011-11-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

11.11.11.
Never a fan of the number game, but today...
I'm taking the plunge.

First time I'm doing so.

On another note, I think... I'm not feeling well.
Will need to go for a check-up sometime soon.
I worry...

All About You

2011-11-03T22:48:00.002+08:00

My mind is all about you.
Does your mind even have a trace of me?

如果

2011-10-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

如果我们之间的距离没那么远，那该多好。
如果我们能够永远走在一起，那该多好。

It Has Rained

2011-10-19T15:27:00.002+08:00

It's a rainy Wednesday, and my heart is feeling the same. Cold, lonely, lost.

If you love someone, set her free. If she comes back, then she's yours; if she doesn't, we're not meant to be.

I hope you don't take too long girl.

Because I will miss you.

Bruno Mars - It Will Rain

If you ever leave me, baby

Leave some morphine at my door

Cause it would take a whole lot of medication

To realize what we used to have

We don't have it anymore

There's no religion that could save

No matter how long my knees are on the floor

So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm making

Will keep you by my side

Will keep you from walking out the door

(chorus)

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

I'll never be your mother's favorite

Your daddy can't even look me in the eye

Ooh, if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing

Saying there goes my little girl

Walking with that troublesome guy

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand

Ooh well, little darlin', watch me change their minds

Yeah, for you I'll try, I'll try, I'll try, I'll try

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make you mine

(chorus)

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

Don't just say goodbye

I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding

If that'll make it right

(chorus)

Cause there'll be no sunlight

If I lose you baby

There'll be no clear skies

If I lose you baby

Just like the clouds

My eyes will do the same, if you walk away

Everyday it will rain, rain, rain

Good Night...

2011-10-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

Even something as simple as exchanging good night messages with you, means the world to me...

时间...

2011-10-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

当我在和你一起的时候，我多么希望时间能暂停，让我慢慢的享受这一刻。
但现实不是这样，时间不知不觉的偷溜走了，不知到几时再能够看到你。

我想我需要多一点勇气；每次和你的时候，想说的话都不知跑去哪里了。
有时候有一股冲动，但临时又不知该怎么开口，结果最后什么也没说。

我希望能把我所有的时间都给你；就算我自己没时间也无所谓。
我希望能把我所有的爱都给你；因为我知道一切都会是值得的。

有我爱你

2011-10-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

我也许不能够带替你以前的伤心难过，但至少在未来的日子里，我希望能把我的幸福借给你。

在我这生命里，我想近年来我从来没有那么想念一个人。虽然我们的距离也只有几条马路，这距离以让我思念不宜。虽然我们每天都在联络，我总有一股冲动想去看看她，想在她不开心的时候逗她，想在她快乐的时候和她一起分享。是不是，我想太多了呢？

两个很普通的人，两个很不同的世界。不过再不知不觉中，我已经慢慢的被她所影响了。她已经踏进了我的世界。我每时每刻都在想着她；她今天工作还好吗，她吃了没或是在吃杯杯面。心里有一千零一个问题，但我怕她会觉得我很烦。如果不和她说话，又怕会渐渐把我给忘了。我想太多了呢？

这，是爱吗？我是个很被动的人；我想我从来没有那么主动过，尤其是对于爱情。什么变了，是以往的伤心吗，还是觉得她就是我未来的唯一？很怕再度被拒绝的我一想到如此情景就想往后退，但如果不说，我会后悔放弃了这段可能永远找不回的感情。后悔，在我心里以有一个了，而我不像在有多一个。我该怎么做呢？被动而得运动的心是如此的混乱。

请你相信我，当你伤心难过
我会在你身后陪在你左右
伤心会没收失落会赶走
路途在遥远你还是有我

在你跌倒时我会扶你起来
如果你不能行走我会背你替你走
在你难过时我会借你肩膀让你哭
做你的出气筒把你的不快乐都拿走
为了你我什么都愿意

但在你的心里，到底有我吗？
我也许永远都不知道，但是我要让你知道：
我的心里全部都是你。

Last Leg

2011-10-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of my final semester of my stay in Republic Polytechnic. It will be time to meet new friends, learn (for some, relearn) new things and to come up with more (hopefully interesting) games. Honestly, I am happy and sad at the same time.

I am happy that I get to do the things I love, which is getting involved in learning about making games. It is my life, a life that not every one is convinced is the path to go, but I have defied the odds, and here I am. I am happy to be meeting new friends, even though there is the seniority factor which I hope to overcome.

I am sad because all of us will be moving on, some of us whom I have grown to become close to, some of whom have become my really good friends. I am sad because I will not be seeing any of my batch this semester, barring those who are in school working on their internship.

I am sad because I will probably not have time to be on MSN much during the day, therefore not being able to keep you company. I am sad because I know I will miss you much.

请你相信我当你伤心难过
我会在你身后陪在你左右
伤心会没收失落会赶走
路途再遥远你还是有我

Time Past...

2011-09-26T01:01:00.001+08:00

Time has passed really quickly. In the turn of an eye, I am going into my last semester of my Game Design studies, and I will soon be taking my steps into the next phase of my life. I am looking forward to the coming semester, for I will be getting entirely new classmates (since all the year 3s will be doing internships bar one), and most of them are my favorite modules in the course.

I need to get ready for my future, and really start to plan for it. Right now, I have a few options available, and I really need to sort it out quick. I don't know if it will work out, but I will never know unless I try, so I will be giving it my best. This will be the mentality I will be bringing into my last semester; I want to bow out on a high, and so I will be really focused in the coming 5 months.

Something happened today that made me remember what happened to be sometime early this year. Nearing the end of my internship, my paternal grandfather passed away; it was a very trying time for me, because I was close to him. I had an inking something happened; it was Monday and I was up at 5.30am getting ready for work. My mum was up especially early, and she was on the phone. I overheard that he had passed away; my parents left for my grandparents' place shortly after. I could not concentrate at work the entire day.

At the funeral, I was trying hard not to look at my grandmother, cause I don't know how she's coping with all of these. I can't imagine, the one beside you for the best part of almost half a decade leaving... I don't know how that feels like. On the last day of the funeral, she finally broke down; the dam in my eyes burst too. It was heart-wrenching, and I have only seen her cry once before, when my great-grandmother died. I was about 5 then.

Even though we have some communication issues at times because I could barely speak Hakka since I was six, I enjoyed my time with them. I remembered looking forward to staying over at their place, because there was a bookshop at the next block that had comics and toys. I remembered doing my homework in the car on the way to their home, so that I can play at their place. More importantly, I remembered that 'ah gong' was the first to the scene when I fell into the fish pool back in my kampung days; pulled me up, wrapped me in a towel and immediately brought me to have a hot bath. Oh, how I miss him so.

Times like this, it makes you cherish more of the people around you, because you do not know when will be the last time you will see them. It's not being pessimistic, it's getting ready for the inevitable. I guess this is why I am not particular about where to go, what to eat whenever I am with friends. It's the time spent that counts, not the quality of food or how much the food costs. Even if the food is bad or expensive, we can whine and complain about it like what friends do all the time, then have a laugh about it. People may say I have no 主见, but they can think all they want; I don't have to correct them, for I know myself best.

There are also times, when I wished I do have a partner. It would be great to have someone to share your joy with, to be able to spend time together and have fun. I know it's not all rosy, but nothing cannot be solved if you sincerely love each other. Somehow, I have yet to find one, though I do know that if she finally appears, she will be the right one.

At 12, I was childish to think that liking someone means making fun and teasing her, even though it was out of playfulness and attention-seeking more than anything else.
At 16, I was foolish to overlook that I had an opportunity in my hands, and that I should have grasped it firmly with my bare hands but didn't because I thought too much.
At 18, I was blockish to think that being together just meant having the namesake, and barely doing anything else because I was living in the past.
At 26, I think I am finally ready.

- If you truly love her, you will never be sad, because you don't want her to be sad too.
- If you truly love her, you will accept her for who she is, and embrace it.
- If you truly love her, you will never try to change her, for it is what makes you love her in the first place.
- If you truly love her, you will never make her cry (for the wrong reasons).

5ive - Closer To Me

Constantly, girl, you're on my mind
And I think about you all of the time
And even though words are hard to say
Girl, I miss you, never thought I'd feel this way

If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking, so what do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling, it's you I believe in
Baby, can't you see that I need you?

You know that it's true
(Every time I see your face, I miss you baby)
You know that it's you
(I want to let you know you're driving me crazy)
(I'll do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me)
You know that it's true
(Every now and then, I want to call you baby)
You know that it's you
(I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady)
Oh yeah
(Life ain't anything alone, can't you see, you're an angel in my eyes everyday)
You're closer to me

Nobody's there when I called your name
And nights are cold, girl, without your flame (and nights are cold, girl, without your flame)
But if I could, girl, I'd make you see (I'd make you see, yea)
That I'm sorry, and that I need you here with me (need you here with me)

If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking, so what do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling, it's you I believe in
Baby, can't you see that I need you?

You know that it's true
(Every time I see your face, I miss you baby)
You know that it's you
(I want to let you know you're driving me crazy)
(I'll do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me)
You know that it's true
(Every now and then, I want to call you baby)
You know that it's you
(I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady)
Oh yeah
(Life ain't anything alone, can't you see, you're an angel in my eyes everyday)
You're closer to me

Every day reminisce with the past
Of a love that we thought would last
How we used to be when it was you and me
How did it all disappear so fast
There are days that I can't forget
There are things that I now regret
I was there for you when you were there for me, and I was thinking we were set
Every night when I'm laying in my bed
I hear your voice going round in my head, think of all the things
I could have done and all those things I could have said
I really will make it up to you
I know now what I've got to do
It took time but now I've realized how much I'm missing you

If you keep on taking, my heart you'll be breaking, so what do you do this to me?
You know how I'm feeling, it's you I believe in
Baby, can't you see that I need you?

You know that it's true
(Every time I see your face, I miss you baby)
You know that it's you
(I want to let you know you're driving me crazy)
(I'll do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me)
You know that it's true
(Every now and then, I want to call you baby)
You know that it's you
(I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady)
Oh yeah
(Life ain't anything alone, can't you see, you're an angel in my eyes everyday)

You know that it's true
(Every time I see your face, I miss you baby)
You know that it's you
(I want to let you know you're driving me crazy)
(I'll do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me)
You know that it's true
(Every now and then, I want to call you baby)
You know that it's you
(I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady)
Oh yeah
(Life ain't anything alone, can't you see, you're an angel in my eyes everyday)
You're closer to me

好的事情

2011-09-24T04:26:00.000+08:00

嚴爵 - 好的事情

休息是为了走更长的路

你就是我的旅途

都是因为你　我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最后

但我遗失了地图

谁给谁束缚　谁比谁辛苦

爱到深处才会领悟

好的事情　最后虽然结束

感动十分　就有十分满足

谢谢你　是你陪我走过那些路

痛　是以后无法在给你幸福

好的事情　也许能够重复

感动时分　就算纷纷模糊

不要哭　至少你和我记得很清楚

爱　是为彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最后

但我遗失了地图

谁给谁束缚　谁比谁辛苦

爱到深处才会领悟

好的事情　最后虽然结束

感动十分　就有十分满足

谢谢你　是你陪我走过那些路

痛　是以后无法在给你幸福

好的事情　也许能够重复

感动时分　就算纷纷模糊

不要哭　至少你和我记得很清楚

爱　是为彼此祝福

不要哭　至少你和我记得很清楚

爱　是为彼此祝福

O' Heart of Mine

2011-09-18T21:38:00.003+08:00

I really miss you.

I really want to tell you how much I feel, how much I care about you.

But...

I really don't want to hear it again.

I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Emo, Or So They Say

2011-08-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

This is my new favorite Chinese song. This song is marvellously written, and the music video just expresses how I feel (or felt). I am not one to express myself well in front of girls, therefore more often than not, I am not able to tell the girl that I like how I feel. I turn to writing songs, the only way I can express myself freely, and the only place I go when I feel down.

There's a comment on the YouTube page which I had to share:

曾經我也喜歡過一個女孩我們的關係非常好打電話傳簡訊

我一直以為會這樣下去不過不久之後女孩有了男朋友

還在4/1當天看到我還自我催眠的認為是開玩笑事實證明不是

有人向女孩告白女孩也答應了...

後來形同陌路還惹她生氣

我一邊道歉一邊說著我很喜歡你所以才這麼在乎

但一切都來不及即使到了現在我還是沒有勇氣關心她...

I feel like I am -that- guy, where I can never express my feelings to someone and therefore lose her eventually.

I watched this video last year, but this version sung by him always stuck in my mind. I felt that his version touched me more, and was much better than the original singer (in my opinion, probably because his was the best male version that I have heard). Love can drive miracles, and I believe that his love story is like a dream, that only happens to a few lucky ones. Looking around me, I have friends who have great relationships, but more of those who are struggling with their loved ones. I really wish them well, but more than not, I really wish I have a love story that I can look back on with fondness.

If we can never be together

I will only bring with me the good memories that we have

And leave behind the scars

Because that's the only way I want to remember you

Reining In

2011-08-01T23:15:00.002+08:00

*Heaves a sigh of relief*

Final Year Project (FYP) Digital Production Phase submission is over. It was particularly tiring towards the end, because of all the new artwork coming in that I had to implement into the game. I guess the rush for the game was really for the 28 July big day, when the clients will come down to the school to see our product. Ultimately, it was a disappointment, but I have learnt to put it behind me. Life has its ups and downs; I need to move on and make the game better, so that I can tell myself that I have learnt from the experience.

I guess I have nothing to complain about my team. Jennifer and Cally have been fantastic in their artwork; they never cease to amaze me every time with their artwork. When they come up with their sketches, I will be a bit doubtful; but their final polished versions always cleared my mind of any doubt. Yes, they only cared about how their art looked in the game, but at the very least, they have done their part. More than their part, actually.

I just wished they knew more about the game, and start acting like the game belongs to them as well. At this point, as I am writing this, I can safely say that no one else in my team knows about how the game works, other than me. It's a shame actually; people dream about being in my team, and yet my team mates do not show the same passion about the game (or about game design in general) as me. All the time, I have been telling them to play the game, and the file was in Dropbox for them to take and play; but they never played the game by themselves. It is disappointing, actually.

I guess I should have been more vocal, to be more demanding and leave no regrets. However, I do not want them to feel like this FYP project is work; I want them to enjoy themselves while they are doing this. I know I am; I am ecstatic every time I see someone who played the game like the game. It means that my hours put into the coding has paid off. Pressure is nothing to me; I have been used to it since I joined RP, when I have to take charge and lead whenever necessary. I have not cared about how people will look at me, but how I look at myself. However, I really dislike it when a valued team member does not share the same passion as me, especially when I know the member is capable of a lot more.

That said, it's two and a half weeks more before we are really done with the game development phase, so I hope it will all go smoothly. I have to re-code the game from scratch, so ideally, I will get started on it as soon as possible. If needed, I will give my honest assessment, as I have always done.

Two weeks of lessons more, and a week of Understanding Tests to go before the semester ends. It has been a roller-coaster of a ride for me, with emotional ups and downs. I think I might cherish this memory the most, because this was what I envisioned me doing the most, and that is making games. LucasArts was beautiful, but I always felt like an outsider. Here, I belong. I hope some things will change for the better; I also need to reflect and find for myself what I need. I want to find back the motivation to make music, to write songs to remember my loved ones. I want to write songs to inspire, even if I will not make a career out of it. It is another of my passion, and I plan to pursue it on a personal level.

She's all alone, making her way to a cold, empty home

Nobody waiting and no one to hold

She's holding her own

Opens her eyes, looks around her

There's faith in disguise

There's no more secrets to shadow with lies

She swallows her pride

I've made up my mind, everything's fine

We're gonna make it through the night

I've made up my mind, everything's fine

We're gonna make it through the night

Deja Vu

2011-07-23T01:25:00.003+08:00

It's been more than 2 months since I made a blog post. I guess I have been that busy (that, or I am too lazy to post, because there is nothing really to write other than my mundane daily life, which more than half of the people in the world are not interested in).

So here's for the handful who actually cares. I am in the final stages of my FYP, which is a game development project for my client. The actual deadline is on 29th July, but they are coming down 1 day earlier, so my team has slightly less time to finish up. Anyway, I am glad that we are about done with the game, therefore it is not that bad. There is just some polishing and add-ons that I still need to code before I can call it a day.

It has been a roller-coaster of a few recent weeks for me. It drained me, physically and mentally. I realized that the same thing which happened to me almost 10 years ago, struck me again. I had an inking it was coming, but what I did not expect was how hard it hit me. When I first realized it, I still did not know him, so I did not really care. Besides, I was already on the rebound. Now, I am in the pits, and I do not know what to do. I am really caught in the middle; do I follow the same footsteps as I did years ago?

I have come to realize that life is but a tease. Just when it appears that the route in front is smooth-sailing, something comes in and hits you like a truck, leaving you dazed and unable to move on. And the route in front of you disappears, leaving you lost and not knowing what to do. I am both in limbo and in a dilemma. As much as I want to, I know that I am not the one, and it has been affirmed once. Time has passed, but I am still just another person, another passer-by.

I guess I can only just trudge on and hope for nothing. Hope gives me nothing but a neverending wish that someday, it will work; but it will not. Hope gives me empty promises which will never be fulfilled. Hope gives me a reason to think that tomorrow will be a better day, when it is not, because I will not be happier.

Sometimes, I wonder why I always go for the impossible. Is it the thrill of punishment, when I realize I cannot achieve it? Or is it that despite my academic achievements, I cannot tell what is worth going for? I really want to care, but what I am really doing is laying my heart bare for knifes to be stabbed at.

When you feel the dream is over, feel the world is on your shoulders

And you lost the strength to carry on

Even though the walls may crumble, and you find you always stumble through

Remember never to surrender to the dark

Cos if you turn another page

You will see it's not the way

The story has to end

And if you need to find a way back, feel you're on the wrong track

Give it time, learn to fly

Tomorrow is a new day, and you will find your own way

You'll be stronger with each day that you cry

Then you'll learn to fly

I guess, I need to learn to fly.

GEe GEe

2011-05-08T03:42:00.006+08:00

It's been almost 2 months since I last posted. Fittingly, I will post on the day Singapore steps to the future with a slightly brighter light shining on us. It is the day Singaporeans spoke up, and although it wasn't as earth-shattering as we hoped it might be, it was still resounding as the incumbent government discovered that support for them was not as solid as it used to be. 6 seats for the opposition party marks the first time they had more than 2 seats since 1997.

As I sit here trying to take in what this all means, to me, to Singapore, and more importantly, to Singaporeans, there were 3 big losers. The first one, and most probably the most devastating loss to Singapore, is Mr. Chiam See Tong. He was a true warrior, a staunch people's MP who stood tall among his PAP rivals regardless of his 76 years of age. He touched many people's hearts simply by being there for them, all from his small office in a void deck only separated from public view by metal partitions. For 27 years, he never had an office to call his own; for 27 years, he did not give up fighting for his people.

http://theonlinecitizen.com/2011/05/that-makeshift-cubicle-at-the-void-deck/

When he decided to move out of Potong Pasir to go and 'fight for democracy' in Bishan-Toa Payoh, he knew it was a risky move; he could lose his place in the parliament AND lose his fortress of 27 years. Therefore, he got the best people he could to help him with his quest to conquer a GRC; a former presidential aide heeded the call. "I have nothing to offer but myself." was his now-famous reply when asked what measures he will use against the PAP's housing upgrading programme. Alas, it was not enough; a 14% winning margin for the PAP meant Mr. Chiam's 27-year parliamentary participation was over. Losing Potong Pasir by a mere 114 votes just added salt to the wounds.

I have never been in touch with the man, never could; we are planets away as far as Singapore was concerned. Nevertheless, from the countless videos that I have watched, I could tell he was inspirational. You do not need an insanely-high IQ to tell; it was that obvious.

https://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=513114404739&oid=173568742656310&comments

My prayers are with Mr. Chiam and his health. 76 years and having recovered from 2 minor strokes, it's already amazing that he competed in this election. Hopefully, he will be strong enough to compete in the next election (health permitting), but for now, rest well Mr. Chiam, stay strong and stay sharp. Even though you are not an MP anymore, I believe you can still serve the people well with your capacity.

The second loser, which was probably unnecessary but on the other hand unavoidable, was PAP's George Yeo. Being a Minister for Foreign Affairs for 7 years as well as a host of other roles previously, he has served the country well. Unfortunately, the Workers' Party fielded an A-Team consisting of Mr. Low Thia Khiang, Mrs. Sylvia Lim and a certain Mr. Chen Show Mao. The former two were already serving in the parliament, the latter came into the picture with a wide array of distinguished accolades in his studies and a work resume with some of the biggest companies in the world. Mr. George Yeo fought valiantly to try and keep the WP back, but in the end, history was made as WP won the GRC, the first time a GRC was won by an opposition since it was introduced in 1988.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1127440/1/.html

In his farewell speech (in which he will step down as Minister for Foreign Affairs), he was gracious in defeat, giving tribute to the victorious WP as well as saying "A new chapter has spoken in Singapore's history". Many people, even those of the opposition, has stood up to encourage him to go for presidential elections in a few months, citing "he's too good of a resource to lose". Only time will tell if he does so, but your deeds are not forgotten.

The third loss was more of 'I rather X got in than Y', but Nicole Seah, aged just 24, put up a glorious fight for the National Solidarity Party (NSP). Being the youngest candidate in elections 2011, she was full of poise when giving her speeches, her eyes burning with passion, her heart resolute to the fact that it is her duty to serve the people. She broke down twice on national television, not because of her greatest regret in life, but because of the way some of the Singaporeans have been left behind in our pursuit for economic growth digits.

Coming up against her was PM Goh and a certain Ms. Tin. With Ms. Tin and Ms. Seah being the youngest candidates ever, constant comparisons were being made between the pair, and soon it was apparent; Ms. Tin could not answer a question to save her life, while Nicole answered each and every question with grace and fluency beyond her years. She shook the internet world; in the matter of weeks, she became the most 'liked' politician on FB (which was soon relinquished to its former occupant) and even had netizens naming the party after her (Nicole Seah Party). Indeed, for all the members in the party, it did feel like she was the one running the show.

In the end, it was futile for PM Goh's base support was too strong, and Ms. Tin successfully piggy-backed her way to more Kate Spade items. However, Nicole Seah proved many people wrong on 1 thing: the youths in Singapore are not as apathetic to politics as we believed them to be. A 44% support for them was also unprecedented for a constituency which has not been contested for almost 20 years. Calls have been made for her to be a NCMP, and given time, she will grow to become a better politician in 5 years' time. Fret not Nicole, work the ground starting from now, and you should see the fruits of your labour soon.

http://www.facebook.com/notes/nicole-seah-%E4%BD%98%E9%9B%AA%E7%8E%B2/tonight-and-the-next-5-years/143894029015010

Of course, with the losers, there will always be winners, and the biggest winner of the night has to be Mr. Low Thia Kiang. Moving to contest Aljunied GRC after having led Hougang SMC for 20 years was, like Mr. Chiam, was a huge step forward. However, he had arguably the strongest team in the entire election campaign, and best of all, he had an understudy who was more than capable of taking over the reins at Hougang. And it proved; they managed to hold on to Hougang SMC, and also won Aljunied GRC from Mr. George Yeo, making them the first opposition party to control a GRC since its inception.

His English might not be the best, but like Mr. Chiam, he is most passionate about serving the people, and that is why he is following in the footsteps of Mr. Chiam and has won 5 consecutive elections (Mr. Chiam had 6 consecutive victories before his most recent loss). Unlike what is to be believed, Mr. Low does not want to take over the government; he just wants to guide and steer the government 'as a co-driver' and 'slap the driver on the head if he steers off-course or falls asleep'.

http://singaporeactually.com/2011/05/01/workers-party-low-thia-khiang-at-east-coast-grc-april-30/

It is almost 5 am, and I will wake up in 8 hrs' time with the knowledge that Ms. Tin is in parliament. Mr. LKY said that we will live to regret for the next 5 years if we did not vote wisely. Indeed, we have not voted wisely, and now we must suffer for our oversight. As much as I would like to give her the benefit of the doubt, I really do not think that she is cut out to be a public speaker, much less a Member of Parliament. Unfortunately, all I can do now is stomp my feet at home for the next 5 years, going "EeeEeeEeeh, what REALLY happened?"

What Are Words

2011-03-10T02:08:00.005+08:00

In a world where the three words are too cheap now, this song epitomizes true love.

It's not the words that matter, it's the actions that you do that really count.

Stay strong, Chris Medina.

Chris Medina - What Are Words

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

'Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them when you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times, then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, they never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be

Where I am and I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them when you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times, then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, they never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

'Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

MIA

2011-02-14T16:02:00.003+08:00

I realized it's been a while since I last blogged (more than 2 months to be exact).
Truth is, I did not really have time to blog.
Taking a little time off to drop a note here on special Valentine's Day =)

First of all, Global Game Jam (28-30 Jan) was a blast.
I thoroughly enjoyed the experience, even though it was really tiring.
We coded our game right down to the wire, and just managed to finish our game in time.
I thought we had a really good game, with awesome backgrounds courtesy of Aaron.
We totally need to improve on our game and bring it up another notch.
Time to brainstorm of more ideas for the game.

Watched 'The Green Hornet' about 2 weeks ago.
While the story plot is nothing new at all, I thought it was a pretty enjoyable movie.
Jay Chou wasn't bad, but wasn't too good as well.
He didn't stick out like a sore thumb though (as with quite a number of Chinese in Western movies), so I guess that was a plus.

Valentine's Day, a day for couples to-be-couples.
Thinking back, I realized I have never spent this day with my other half.
Not like I had one to begin with, but still...
Even so, I guess it's just part of who I am.
I don't see the point in making it -really- special just for this one day.
If you do really love one another, every day together is a special occasion.
(cliche, I know)

Rapunzel

2010-12-08T01:30:00.004+08:00

Well, I believed I have said that I will not be watching the movie Rapunzel.

I don't watch fully animated movies, not since um.. Lion King? Rofl.

However, the movie ticket was free, so why not?

Now, I am glad I watched it.

In short, it is a very good movie, and the animations, well, live up to Disney standards, let's just leave it at that.

Hats off to the animators, especially the hair animators (well, duh, since it's Rapunzel we're talking about here).

I love how they re-designed the story to make it a moving tale and to make it relevant to this century.

Thinking about it, I can't help but compare it with what I learnt in Art of Story and Game Design Workshop.

They all made sense now, along with all the game design articles I've read recently (trust me, I read a lot nowadays).

I shall put more thought into the games I make from here on (assuming I have time =x).

Lucasfilm!

2010-12-05T01:07:00.005+08:00

Just realized I haven't been updating my blog in almost a month.

I have been that busy I guess.

Lots of programming to do, lots of game developing software to learn.

Then I received news that I have gotten an internship at Lucasfilm Singapore.

This week, I started my work there (not the most enjoyable journey, it's located near the Expo).

Thankfully, my elder brother was resourceful enough to help me find a private bus service.

It picks up people from my area, then head straight to Changi Business Park.

At least I don't have to squeeze with all the people in the morning trains.

I am there as a game tester, for a game I'm not supposed to talk about.

Hah, I heard that so much at the talk last Saturday, I decided to pick that up.

My facilitators thought it will be a good experience for me.

I will be able to see how game developers work and to learn from them.

I am still undecided as to whether I should apply for GAMBIT.

Granted it is something I am aiming for, it will be my third internship in this diploma.

I don't even think most people have two, much less three.

Am I too greedy?

If I do apply for the attachment and got selected, I will definitely have to defer my studies for a semester.

I think it's the main thing that's weighing on my mind right now.

Currently, I'm in a slightly topsy-turvy schedule.

I'm currently undergoing my Industry Immersion Programme (IIP), which is something only year 3s have.

Due to the timing of the internship, my programme chair decided to help me switch the semesters.

Therefore, while my batch goes for internship in year 3 semester 2, I'll be in school retaking the modules I have this semester.

It's wierd, but at least I'll still graduate with my batch (assuming my PD and FYP goes well).

At least, my superior and my colleagues have been relatively good to me so far.

My direct superior originally worked at Lucasfilm over at the US side.

He came here about 2 years ago to set up a game testing branch here.

Right now, there are about 10 to 11 game testers including him, and is still growing.

I'm also working under the Senior Technical Director for some asset management stuff.

It's a side job at the moment, because he learnt that I've had some programming experience.

It's quite cool, I get to use some interesting software.

My mum's birthday is coming!

We're going to have an advance dinner celebration for her tomorrow, since her birthday falls on Monday.

Happy birthday Mum!

Plans

2010-11-06T01:24:00.003+08:00

Big things planned for when I wake up.
Lots of things I want to do.

May I have the determination to finish them all.

At Any Moment

2010-11-02T03:24:00.005+08:00

3.30am, and still awake.

Time really flies, it is already the 4th week of school, even before I realized it.

So far, school has been enjoyable, except for drawing.
I guess, it's a love-hate relationship, this thing I have with drawing.

I love character design, in text.

I like to develop new characters, to see their relationship with the other characters in the story.

I just don't like drawing them out.

People keep saying "Hey, your drawing isn't bad at all."

Not how I see it, because I really cannot visualize things well.

Like my music before, I can have stuff in my head, but I just cannot materialize it properly.

Besides, drawing is too troublesome (Shikamaru mode here).

Anyway, here is my newest composition, 'At Any Moment'.

It's not finished, not even close, but at least it somewhat relates to how I feel right now.

Full lyrics and hopefully my 2nd song to follow.

At Any Moment

At any moment I really wanna see you here by my side again

It's really hard for me to say it's over cause it's not the end of us

Gone are the days where we would watch the sunset and stayed up for the sunrise

It's unbelievable how it all started with a kiss, now it's sweet no more

At any moment

You'll be right here

At any moment now

We'll be back where we belong

Life...

2010-10-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

I am so busy at the moment.

Purple Haze

2010-10-17T23:01:00.008+08:00

Introducing a sample verse of my second track, "Purple Haze".

This was one of the songs I wrote in 2 months ago, and is something I related to a lot a while back.

Hopefully, I can finish this song soon, but there's still a lot of work to be done with regards to this track.

Credits to Dusthill (Switzerland), for the amazing piano track.

*If it shows nothing, wait for it to load, and click on the left/right arrow to scroll to the song. Should work.

Purple Haze

(verse 1)

Hello sun, you are my light, my direction

My source of strength to carry on in this world

How's it feel to be the centre of the universe

How I wish my life would be the same

(pre-chorus)

I gotta heads up, the road's still long for me

It's still ain't time, I ain't gonna call it quits

This neverending path is way too rough for me

Too hard a maze, I can't find my way

(chorus)

Purple haze coming down, descend upon me

Got me blinded, got me scared

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

I'm stuck in the middle

When will I come out of this nightmare

Light's fading, my will's eroding

Oh sun, please be right here

And point me to the end

(verse 2)

Life's too short for any regrets, I know that

I just want things the way it used to be

How's it feel to be the power of all life

Without you, the world just grinds to a stop

(pre-chorus)

I gotta heads up, the road's still long for me

It's still ain't time, I ain't gonna call it quits

This neverending path is way too rough for me

Too hard a maze, I've lost my way

(chorus)

Purple haze coming down, descent upon me

Got me blinded, got me scared

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

I'm stuck in the middle

When will I come out of this nightmare

Light's fading, my will's eroding

Oh sun, please be right here

And point me to the end

Run

2010-10-11T20:52:00.004+08:00

Introducing my debut song, "Run"

Credits go to Minor2Go (Germany), for his piano tune.

I personally feel that this song has a Linkin Park ring to it.

Anyway, enjoy!

Run

(verse)

From the day that I was born

I was meant to be alone

Time will tell if I was wrong

All the dreams and all the faith

What I see and what I know

They are nothing but a lie

(bridge)

And I am stronger

If I believe that love doesn't exist

In me

(chorus)

And I will run

And I will hide

I won't fall

if I don't stay

I will run

And I will hide

I won't fall

if I don't say a word

The Solo March

2010-10-11T03:09:00.010+08:00

Introducing my first piece of music, "The Solo March"

This was just an attempt to familiarize myself with the software, as well as to learn something other than Audacity.

Although this is a deviation from the music I want to make, I need to learn to use the software first before I go into it proper.

Any form of comment is appreciated, and hope you people enjoy it =)

Lost

2010-09-30T23:59:00.006+08:00

It's been a while since I've blogged.

There aren't really any new updates, apart from the fact that I've been slacking at home.

My laptop is down after surviving 2 semesters (gg motherboard issues), and I just re-formatted my desktop.

So, for now I have essentially nothing to do until I get my laptop back, since a lot of stuff are in it.

Today I went to the JCIG 1-day camp; was supposed to be an overnight camp, but changed in the last minute.

Got to know some new friends, and we had lots of fun.

Group 2 is the best; we swept all the awards haha (shameless xD)

I was surprised we actually won the cosplay award though.

We had intended to do Ryu (Street Fighter) because it was easy to do, but changed after having some technical issues.

I have never even heard of the character =x but our team was committed to doing it, and everyone contributed to their abilities.

So, all in all, it was great to see our efforts bear fruit =)

The school holidays are coming to an end; in about 2 weeks, school will resume.

I wanted it to be slightly longer, but on the other hand, I can't wait to start the new modules.

I'd assume it'll be lots of fun, because we finally, finally get to do 'game design', which was sorely missing for the first 3 semesters >_>

It's not going to be easy, but at least I'll finally do something meaningful I guess.

I'm hoping for the best!

Birthday Wishes

2010-09-17T13:29:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday Yih Shy =)

Tomorrow is my elder brother's big day; will be a busy weekend.

Then, Monday is apparently the game development team's last day for the sprint.

Tuesday, I'll have a make-up lesson for GameStudio programming with Ming Wei.

Busy? Probably.

I'm quite drained, even though it's the holidays.

I barely have the energy to do anything, even though I'm not doing anything.

I ran kilometers, but that's about it.

I really need to pick myself up.

I have been feeling low due to some incidents, and I really need to get over it.

May I have the strength to hold on to what I cherish most.

Hope is faint; the path is fogged.

Dreams are distant; my eyes are blinded.

Faith is diminished by fear; aspirations are numbed by reality.

Trust is lost; my love has waned.

Deep In Thought

2010-09-09T14:01:00.002+08:00

Now that I'll have some time this week, I could definitely use some of it to think things through.

12 years ago, I was in the same class as this particular girl in secondary school.

When she first walked in, I thought she was a Malay girl, because her skin color was pretty tanned.

Scanning the class, I thought "Hmm, 2 Malays in our class."

When my form teacher aka Chinese teacher informed us that there were no Malays in the class, I was surprised.

The other 'Malay' would turn out to be my best friend and soccer buddy in secondary school (and beyond)

I did not really interact with her in Secondary 1.
I just knew that I was in the same Home Economics class as her, and her partner was Joey.

(In the class, students were paired up to do the cooking)

I was pretty messed up at cooking, along with Eddy.

I didn't know how my Home Economics teacher can eat what we cook and still survive, to say the least.

My scores for the class was not too bad though, surprisingly.

The turning point came in Secondary 2, when she asked me if I wanted to continue in Gardening Club.

(Ya, you saw it right, gardening)

I can't remember much why I was in it, except that my form teacher was the head teacher for it, and somehow I was involved after.

It was then that I really 'knew' her.

She was bubbly, cheerful and witty; we never seemed to run out of topics to say to each other.

We could talk on the phone for hours, sometimes up til 3-4am. (we didn't have handphones then)

We often walked to the MRT station after school together, then take the train home.

To see her as much as possible, I would drop off at Yew Tee before taking the bus home.

On reflection, Secondary 2 was probably the best time of my life.

We were in the same class for the next 2 years, even after we were streamed accordingly to our subject choices.

I took History, and she took Geography; the rest of our subjects were the same.

Those years passed by pretty fast for some reason; we were still close, but somehow there was a distance between us.

I guess it was my fault; I was a little insecure then, and in addition, I learnt about something.

Turned out my best friend also likes her; I was very confused then.

What should I have done? What could I have done? I still don't know.

After secondary school, she was posted to Pioneer JC, while me, Yishun JC.

I tried appealing to Pioneer JC, but was rejected as my grades weren't good enough.

I guess that's that; we barely kept in touch after.

For a while, I couldn't get her out of my mind.

Seven years before I finally let her go in my heart.

Those years were a blur in my head.

I was thinking of so many things I hated myself for not doing.

I regretted not accompanying her more when she cried on the train.

I hated myself for not being there for her the 2nd time she did (I think I made her cry too that time)

I regretted never pursuing her more than I did. 3 times I said I liked her, but I never asked her.

I told myself after I 'woke up', that if I am to be with another girl, she will have to be the one.

I don't want to make another girl cry because of some petty argument.

I don't want no more regrets.

Arun asked me once: "Why don't you want to go to a club and get to know girls?"

My reply was "Cause I know those relationships won't last."

I don't like clubs, never been, never will.
I don't like the scene there; I don't like the things that go on in there.

I don't know why people go there in the first place, apart from men who go there for the 'sport'.

I heard someone say "Time to get some girls" in the club before.

These people should die in a fire.

If I am to be with a girl, she will have my all; no excuses.

People say I'm too nice.
People also say girls only like guys that are bad, because they are more romantic.

If that's the case, I feel sad for girls, because they will only hurt themselves more.

I'm not saying I'm ideal; I'm far from being boyfriend material.

I'm saying that it is a retarded saying.

I'm nice because I don't see the point of making enemies out of everyone.

I'm protective of my friends, because I want them to be happy and not get hurt.

If anyone crosses my friends, I'll be sure to stand up for them.

A lot of girls see me more as a brother/father figure.

As much as I don't like it, I can't stop them from thinking about it.

But now, I don't really care.

I've given up trying to please everyone a long time ago.

I'll just do what I feel is warranted, but if you don't like it, just tell me.

I'll stop doing it. I'll even go away.

Just tell me.

Work

2010-09-02T11:16:00.003+08:00

Another day with little sleep... 3hrs lol.
And another sleepy day at work.
I'm looking forward to the end of UT3.
Then, I'll be able to design games and make music full-time.
I aim to create at least 1 game and 1 song by the end of the holidays.
In addition, I am going to restart my driving lessons (finally).

I'm going to try and do away with it as quickly as possible, so my mother won't nag at me anymore haha.

I feel left out of Jeremy's experimental game development team.
I want to be part of it, but because of the internship, I am unable to commit myself to it.
As such, although I am in the team, I feel I am not contributing much =/
Hopefully, I will be able to have more time for it after this internship.

If anyone wants to form a PD team with me, just tell me.
I'll see if I can accommodate some time.

I want to get started as soon as possible so I don't have to worry about it too much come year 3.

I also want to start making games, cause I really like the vibe of coming up with something potentially fun =D

Peaceful Night

2010-08-25T03:57:00.003+08:00

It's almost 4am, and here I am blogging, knowing I have to be up in 3 hours' time.

I'm listening in to Eminem's song, 'Love The Way You Lie', featuring Rihanna.

It's a pretty sadistic song, showing how this girl is in an abusive relationship, yet she's liking it.

The idea is pretty original, and the song is pretty nice, just the context is contentious I guess.

I simply love the lyrics though; Eminem is a genius at lyrics and rhyming which I'm hoping to emulate.

My holidays have so far not felt like one at all.

Internship, countless workshops, and Jeremy's game development team have kept me busy so far.

There are some things which I rather not mention, as I have done it many times.

No use dwelling on sad things; Lia's quote puts it well:

"Every second you spend upset, is a moment of happiness you will never get back."

Therefore, I will use every opportunity from now on to do things which will be useful.

Look on the bright side, I will keep telling myself.

Game making workshops have been the bright spark of my course so far.

I'm loving every second of it, even though they are just reading off the tutorials.

At least they are making the effort to do it in the first place, and I really really appreciate it.

Even if half the rest of the course are not.

Even if the rest just think of it as a way to get easy CE points.

Even if the rest takes these workshops for granted.

They don't know what they're missing out on.

The facilitators don't have to do this; they can just let our grades suffer for semester 2.

They probably didn't have it easy when they started out, so they wanted to make our lives easier.

This is the problem with our people; spoon feed them, and they bite the hand that feeds them.

Take things away from them, and they complain to no end.

Human nature? If that's the case, then I feel sad for humanity.

"As long as wrong feels right, it's like I'm in flight."

"But you lied again, now you get to watch her leave out the window.

Guess that's why they call it 'window pane'."

Sorry, quotes from the lyrics off the song.
I can't get enough of his lyrics.

I guess I feel a lot for this song, not because of the fighting of course, never fought before.

But it tells of the feelings one has when he really, really loves the girl.

To the point everything he does feels right at that point in time, with no fear of anything.

To the point he can go crazy over the smallest thing.

To the point he will want to get back the feelings he had in the past, but is missing now.

Love, how touching it is.

Yet love, how blinding you are.

Love, how wonderful it is.

Yet love, how destructive you are.

Being Patriotic

2010-08-15T03:05:00.002+08:00

So, school has ended! 3 weeks before our final round of tests, then another month of holidays.

Can I say I have been looking forward to this day for a while now?

I will be quite busy during this period of time though, with all the game design activities coming up.

Thus I can't say I will be enjoying the holidays.

But hey, I will be doing something I like, so I can't complain can I? =D

It was my birthday 2 days ago, on the very last day of school~.

My class sang me an impromptu birthday song, after Eddie found out haha.

Then, during lunch break, my old classmates sprang me a surprise celebration ^_^.

Not going to name names here because I know I will miss out people LOL.

However, thanks to all who contributed!

Especially a certain lady by the name of Jessie, you know what you did ;)

After school, I went to meet up with Litong, Angela, WR and Des for dinner!

Coincidentally, WR's dad has the same birth date as me!

So, we sort of celebrated 'together' haha.

Her parents cooked up carrot cake (black and white) and kway teow for us, sponsored by WR ^_^.

It was delicious! If only CCK had similar awesome tasting ones ... /sadpanda

If it had been nearer to where I live, I might make it a habit to drop by often x_x.

Anyway, I appreciated the company =D even though my body was aching like crazy from the IPPT test -_-

Today, I suddenly felt 'patriotic', so I wrote... a National Day song!

I know, it's like 6 days late, but still it's the thought that counts, right? Haha.

I got lazy at the end; hopefully I might find some content good enough to fill it up.

This is ... Singapore

This is the day we share the joys we have

This is the time our hearts will beat as one

We've lived and breathed the air of harmony

We've shared the woes and now we'll spread the love

This is the year we look back on the past

And celebrate the journey that we had

We'll work together for our hopes and dreams

We've saved the best for now, we'll do it hand in hand

(chorus)

Wave your hands in unity

Raise the flag up high

Time to make a difference

Time to show we care

It is deep in our hearts

Running through our veins

The spirit that defines us

The bond that connects us

It's Singapore

(verse 2)

This is the day we share the joys we have

This is the time our hearts will beat as one

We'll work together for our hopes and dreams

We've saved the best for now, we'll do it hand in hand

(chorus)

Wave your hands in unity

Raise the flag up high

Time to make a difference

Time to show we care

It is deep in our hearts

Running through our veins

The spirit that defines us

The bond that connects us

It's Singapore

Orchard Road

2010-08-10T01:47:00.002+08:00

I haven't been to Orchard Road for a number of months now, and in 2 days I've been there twice.

Had a lot of fun, and ate a lot of good stuff ^_^. *all your fault Jess =x*

I also took a good look at the new place called Scape.

It's not the finished product yet, but I think it'll be a decent place to hang out once it's done.

It's the last week of school, and there are plenty of things to do.

We will need to finish the History of the Arts artwork (hang on people!), and also the Drawing concept artwork.

I also have my internship to deal with, and the gears are clicking.

I must admit though, that I am enjoying the internship.

Not so much the game itself, but that I am being part of making a game.
It makes me happy, even though I am just a copywriter.

At least, I am finally doing something I am going to be proud of at the end.

As Shaun said, we want to be remembered for the story, even if the game does not turn out well.

What am I talking; of course the game is going to be good.

To Hope

2010-08-07T22:15:00.004+08:00

Here's my latest song in it's entirety!

To Hope

When you are falling from the sky

You wish you had something to hold on to

When life has passed you in a glance

You wished you'd never taken the step back

Now, are you ready to move on?

Are you ready to try something new?

And here I am, counting on you

To pick yourself up and run the full distance

When the northern wind goes against you

Muster the strength to overcome Everest

It's not so hard to slip and fall

You wish you had the mental toughness still

You are not going to stop here, are you?

When you are so close to your dreams

I'm sure you have more to offer

So step up and show them how it's done

(chorus)

May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow

wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays

May the love that's hidden deep inside your heart

find the love that you've waited for in your dreams

I'll pray for you tonight

Many of the great achievements

Were accomplished by tired and exhausted men

They kept on working for their goals

And never gave up fighting for their dreams

In all the things, better to hope than to despair

Stars up in the sky, count the times you found hope

And come out all at once

(chorus)

May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow

wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays

May the love that's hidden deep inside your heart

find the love that you've waited for in your dreams

I'll pray for you tonight

Preview

2010-08-07T02:52:00.000+08:00

Preview of my new song~

When you are falling from the sky

You wish you had something to hold on to

When life has passed you in a glance

You wished you'd never taken the step back

Now, are you ready to move on?

Are you ready to try something new?

And here I am, counting on you

To pick yourself up and run the full distance

Exhausted!

2010-08-05T20:34:00.002+08:00

Another week before the semester is over (barring UT3 that is).

It's been a roller-coaster 4-5 months.

New friends, new classmates, new modules, and most importantly, new goals.

I do not think that I will be able to do as well as I did last year, but hey, for the most part I tried.

I really want to finish making a game before the next semester starts.
At least I will be able to get some experience in level design, so it will stand me in good stead.

So far, things have been getting more interesting, because I'm finally doing what I want to do most here.

Disappointingly, the internship isn't working out as smoothly as I thought, but I think the year 2s will pull through.

It feels like we are more enthusiastic about it than our team leaders, which is a shame really.

I understand that they have their FYPs to contend with, but honestly, not communicating with us at all is no excuse.

At least I can be assured that the year 2s are more committed, which can only bode well for our morale, whatever little is left.

Looking back at the past semester, it is hard to believe that 14 weeks flew by so fast.

It just felt like last week that it was the first week of year 2.

I've had some really good times, some not-so-good times (rare though).

I wished the camaraderie of the class would have been better though, would have been easier on all of us.

Sadly, the longer the semester, the more divided we are.

The only thing binding the class together? Games.

However, that's about the only common topic the class have.

Let's hope we can pull through this last week of lesson.

I feel like writing a song now, but I am tired =x.

Haven't written one in a while, but I guess there's no rush.

Touch And Go

2010-07-27T00:38:00.002+08:00

Finally, my busy schedule is coming to an end... or is it?

Last week was a drag, because my days were packed up to night-time.

One of the things was to prepare for the Academic Awards Ceremony.

I had won 2 Diploma awards and a Module award.

My parents were there at the ceremony on Saturday, after initially saying they couldn't.

I hope this is a sign that things are changing for the better.

I remember the times where I really disappointed my parents, especially my mum.
I hope it will not happen again.

I have been helping god-sis Liqing out with her Java programming lately.

She has her UT2 assignment which she needed to hand in yesterday.

Even though I barely knew Java, I tried to help her out as best as I could.

I gave her ideas on how to do some of the codes, with reference to my Python programming knowledge haha.

She did pretty well to be honest, for barely 6 hours of work over 2 days.

If she started earlier, she could probably finish the codes well within the deadline.

Oh well, I can now pick up Java at my own pace =D.

I had my first Game Maker tutorial session today.
From the looks of it, it is pretty simple to use, but I need more effort in order to make a good game.

Also another piece of good news, I got selected for the internship this coming holidays =D.

I'm now just hoping the company will choose me now; my fate's in their hands.

This will be a good opportunity for me to see how well I'll fare in the game design industry.

I think this will be a good learning experience.

Now that things have more or less settled down, I will need to continue writing my story.

It's still stuck at chapter 3 for a while now, and I want to finish it as soon as possible.

Should

2010-07-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

- Start my running sequence again. But I'm very busy these few days =(.

- Compile all the songs I've written. I'm losing track.

- Calm down. There's no end to enmity.

- Sleep more. I'm so tired >_<.

Radiant Sun

2010-07-20T13:29:00.004+08:00

O' radiant sun of mine,

How I need you so.

Wrenched as my heart is,

Glow your eyes has lost.

Love I am yearning fo',

Your smile I am missing.

O' beautiful rose of mine,

How enchanting you're to me.

Desperate as my will is,

Distant we are both getting.

Hope I am wishing for,

Emptiness 'all I'm grasping at.

I think, I am losing the reason.

遗情

你到底今天过的好吗

你的头是否还会痛吗

我心里好多你的疑问

但始终还是找不到答案

我独自喝着草莓牛奶

看了你给我的偶像剧

我回想我们谈过的话

而思念我们走过的时光

我知道你的心里只有他

以冷却的感情会不会遗忘

我掉的眼泪像夏叶飘落

我承受得痛你知不知道

我独自喝着草莓牛奶

看了你给我的偶像剧

我回想我们谈过的话

而思念我们走过的时光

我知道你的心里只有他

以冷却的感情会不会遗忘

我掉的眼泪像夏叶飘落

我承受得痛你知不知道

我对你的爱在冷库冻结

以失去的友情能不能挽回

爱你的心动已慢慢走远

我想我忘了爱你的滋味

你到底今天过的好吗

你的头是否还会痛吗

我心里好多你的疑问

但始终还是找不到答案

Rain and Sleep

2010-07-17T23:53:00.001+08:00

Slept the day away.

Was caught in the torrential rain at like 4.30am.

I was on the way home, when it happened.

Good thing I had an umbrella and jacket, or I would have been stranded.

Everywhere was flooded; I had a hard time 'plucking' my feet out of the puddles.

Slippers keep dropping off >_<.

At least I got home in one piece.

Karma

2010-07-15T00:27:00.002+08:00

Wednesday's Drawing module was fun.
We got to draw figure heads, and we learnt a lot of techniques on how to draw them realistically.
I think I learnt a lot, the most I've gotten out of Lam Fung since the start =).

After class, I went to the Award Winners photoshoot.
I thought it would be a formal affair, but turned out they wanted to portray casualness.
Being in a photoshoot was wierd, cause I am not used to it, and I don't think I'm photogenic at all.
I shouldn't have gone I think.
I had to sign a document saying I am open to interviews from the media now.
I'd hate that...

On the way home, decided to drop by KFC to eat dinner, since there's no food at home.

There were these group of secondary school kids next to the table I was eating.

After they left, one of them forgot to take his wallet with him, and left it on the table.

I didn't notice it at first, until the KFC employee took it and tried to chase after them, to no avail.

She took the wallet and kept it in case he came back.

Sure enough, he came back, but he approached another employee instead, who knew nothing.

She shrugged, and he was about to leave, when I finally got his attention after trying several times.

I pointed him to the employee who found his wallet, and she got his wallet for him.

A small gesture, but does the world lots of good.
I would be sad if I did misplace my wallet.

I did misplace my handphone once, in the school library.

Luckily, no one took it, and a passer-by even dialled my friend, who mis-called my phone.

I found him eventually, and he gave it back to me.

Initially decided not to run, but then changed my mind in the end.

Ran 5 km, which is a personal best for me in months.

I am finally regaining my stamina, and it feels great.

Just realized I have so many aspirations.

Music composing/productions, film editing/making, story writing/development, game designing/development.

Ahhh the dilemma...

Trailer Time!

2010-07-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

After working on it for over 6 hours, the trailer for Art of Story is finally done!
It may be a little bit of poor quality, because I had to sacrifice quality for file size.

I'd prefer uploading a 19k file to a 112k file anytime, thank you very much.

Enjoy!

Felt This Way...

2010-07-12T16:25:00.003+08:00

I'm at the lowest point of my life.

Finding my way.

Continued at 6pm...

Back from running, as has been my routine for the last 4 out of 5 days.

I love running, it gives me time to think, to straighten out my thoughts.

It takes away my unhappiness, if just for an hour or two.

It allows me to re-focus, on what is really important to me.

It helps me find answers, to problems that I face.

Smoking and taking drugs? Overrated.

Today, while running, I saw a lady walking around the park with her mum (of roughly about 70 yrs old).

I thought, well, who still accompanies their mothers for walks nowadays?

Then, having ran another round, I saw the lady's head leaning on her mum while walking.

It struck a chord with me.

This is what love should be about, spending time with each other, being close to each other.

Love shouldn't be sad; it should be a happy thing.

One shouldn't be sad that his love is not reciprocated; he should be happy that he had the chance to love in the first place.

Seeing the scene brought back plenty of memories.

Good memories, bad memories.

It reminded me that I had no reason to be sad; I have had a blessed life so far.

EM1 in primary school for 4 years, having the best bunch of friends from secondary school and JC.

Had the chance to go into uni, had the chance to enroll into the course of my dreams.

A caring mother, a dad who worked into the wee hours of the morning to feed the family.

A loving younger brother who shares my passion for music and games.

An elder brother who still takes care of us despite his wierd temperament.

Another scene came into my mind today; it was on the news yesterday.

A couple was getting married, the day of the World Cup final itself.

The bride was Spanish; and the groom was Dutch.

And the wedding was held in a Spanish church.

How coincidental could that be, and how ironic it is at the same time.

Countries split because of the final, yet connected because of their love for each other.

I would just like to say thanks to my ah gong and ah ma, who will probably not be reading this.
(since they don't understand English anyway)

They have been taking care of me and my younger bro since young.

We loved spending time at their place, and they always buy stuff for us when we visit their place.

Our hongbaos are always the biggest too.

Now, ah ma's movement is not so mobile, and ah gong is stricken with a tumor and may need chemo.

My heart and wishes are with them; I pray for them.

Ah ma, ah gong, I will visit you when I have the time.

I promise.

Suddenly...

2010-07-12T01:01:00.002+08:00

The song 眷恋 by FIR started getting into me.
I had it on repeat the whole day, to the point I almost know the lyrics to the song.

Chapter 3 of my story is done, 1.8k words and counting.

I am slacking quite a bit, but slowly I will finish my story.

While emo-ing at night, I wrote a song while playing the guitar.

This is probably the second song I have written with chords.

Still not the finished product, but at least I have something to work with.

Purple Haze

(verse 1)

Hello sun, you are my light, my direction

My source of strength to carry on in this world

How's it feel to be the centre of the universe

How I wish my life would be the same

(pre-chorus)

I gotta heads up, the road's still long for me

It's still ain't time, I ain't gonna call it quits

This neverending path is way too rough for me

Too hard a maze, I can't find my way

(chorus)

Purple haze coming down, descent upon me

Got me blinded, got me scared

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

I'm stuck in the middle

When will I come out of this nightmare

Light's fading, my will's eroding

Oh sun, please be right here

And point me to the end

(verse 2)

Life's too short for any regrets, I know that

I just want things the way it used to be

How's it feel to be the power of all life

Without you, the world just grinds to a stop

(pre-chorus)

I gotta heads up, the road's still long for me

It's still ain't time, I ain't gonna call it quits

This neverending path is way too rough for me

Too hard a maze, I've lost my way

(chorus)

Purple haze coming down, descent upon me

Got me blinded, got me scared

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

I'm stuck in the middle

When will I come out of this nightmare

Light's fading, my will's eroding

Oh sun, please be right here

And point me to the end

Storywriting

2010-07-11T01:17:00.002+08:00

Working on my story finally.

On encouragement from Edward, I decided to continue writing the long version of my story submission.

I am finished with chapter 2, with many to come. I foresee at least 15 chapters for my story.

Ganbatte!

Wanted to do the trailer today, but realized I didn't have the scenes on my laptop.

Dumb me, I guess I didn't save the scenes into my laptop when I had the thumbdrive.

Fail.

Life is beautiful.

Rest's For The Weak

2010-07-10T01:35:00.003+08:00

Weekend!

And I'm scheduled to do quite a number of things; hopefully they can be done.

Monday, there will be a photoshoot, so I need to think of what to wear then.

Then two Saturdays, I have an Awards ceremony to attend.

So far, I have not really shared my joy with anyone about the achievements I have had in RP.

If I shared it with friends, they will just say I am showing off.

My parents are both busy, so they cannot attend anything I am involved in.

It feels lonely, but I guess I am used to it.

I am still drained, probably from two consecutive days of running.

I am like a soccer player who just came back from a long injury layoff and needs match fitness.

I am like a guitar who has not been used for months and needs retuning.

I am getting back to running fitness, but I have a lot more to do.

Peace. Good night people.

Hopefully, my finished song should be out soon.

Drawing UT

2010-07-06T22:10:00.004+08:00

Finally over. So tired.

Thankful. Just being close to you means so much to me.

Yes I Will full version

(verse 1)

This is the moment, the moment I've been waiting for

The orange sky, reminds of the time

When I met you, I didn't know what to say

Now that I've found you, I don't want to give you up

This is the moment, the moment I've been looking for

The rainy day, reminds of the solemnness

When I saw you, it felt like you were strong

Now that I'm with you, you're not invulnerable

(chorus)

And now

I'll be your eyes, when you cannot tell lies from truth

I'll be your ears, when you tell me a piece of your mind

I'll be right here, when you need me to be with you

I'll be here by your side

And now

I'll be your dream, take you to where you want to be

I'll be your wish, give you everything you need

I'll take the chance, put everything on the line

Just to stay right here with you

Yes I will

(verse 2)

There is no distance, no distance to keep us apart

The fading lights, reminds me of the night

When I held you, I didn't know what to feel

Now that you are here, I don't want to miss the chance

(bridge)

To say that I love you, until the end of time

I promise to be with you, I promise it will last

And now, here we are, together all alone

We'll share the weals and woes, 'til death do us part

(chorus)

I'll be your eyes, when you cannot tell lies from truth

I'll be your ears, when you tell me a piece of your mind

I'll be right here, when you need me to be with you

I'll be here by your side

I'll say

I'll be your dream, take you to where you want to be

I'll be your wish, give you everything you need

I'll take the chance, put everything on the line

Just to stay right here with you

Yes I will

UTs Are Here Again

2010-07-05T00:19:00.002+08:00

It's that time of the semester again, UT2!

Spent the entire day drawing, I decided to change the setting so I re-drew everything.

I'm left with the final artwork now, going to finish it tomorrow.

Another song that I partly wrote, still looking for a suitable chorus.

I had a tune in mind, but forgot, so now it's a replacement tune.

出口

我爱你三个字

这么说不出口

眼前的六月天

已经不见踪影

距离似乎很远

但是却有很近

让我不知所措

我到底该这么做

开不了口的踪迹

几时会消失

我希望那一天快到来

A Prayer

2010-07-04T11:44:00.002+08:00

I just heard that my grandfather is being tested for lung cancer.

I seriously hope the test results will show otherwise tomorrow.

I pray for you... Hope you will be okay.

阿公，你会没事的。

Drained

2010-07-02T21:10:00.003+08:00

Tired. Drained.

Part of the lyrics in my mind. Wrote it on the bus ride to Asian Civilisation Museum.

Yes I Will

This is the moment

The moment I've been waiting for

The orange sky

Reminds of the time

When I met you

I didn't know what to say

Now that I've found you

I don't want to give you up

This is the moment

The moment I've been looking for

The rainy day

Reminds of the solemnness

When I saw you

It felt like you were strong

Now that I'm with you

You're not invulnerable

(chorus)

And now

I'll be your eyes, when you cannot tell the lies from truth

I'll be your ears, when you need to speak your mind

I'll be right here, when you need me

I'll be here by your side

And now

I'll be your dream, take you to where you want to be

I'll be your wish, give you everything you need

I'll take the chance, put everything on the line

Just to stay right here with you

Yes I will

My First Song

2010-06-28T19:16:00.003+08:00

I have finally composed the tune for the first song I have written.

Check this space for the final version soon.

Kuala Lumpur 26-27 June 2010

2010-06-27T23:48:00.003+08:00

Went to Kuala Lumpur with my JC friends this weekend!

Met Litong, Angela, Desmond and Eugene at Golden Mile Complex early Saturday morning.

I learnt that it is a horrible place to be at, because there are no MRT stations near it.

Boarded the bus at 7.45am and we were on our journey.

I had a seat next to the toilet haha, but no one used it for the entire trip o_o.

We went by the Second Link at Tuas.

It was very different from the Causeway because it is totally empty.

I guess people still don't use it often.

We had 3 'pit-stops' on the way to our destination.

We had Ramli's burger (chicken with egg and cheese) at the 2nd stop, and it was quite good.

On the bus, Litong and I watched 'Shes Out Of My League' on his iPhone.

It's a NC16 movie, but it barely seemed like it, but for sexual references it was.

Reached Berjaya Times Square at about 2pm.

We then took a cab to our hotel.

Desmond and I got conned, because the taxi driver didn't switch on his meter, and charged us excess.

The hotel didn't seem like a 4-star hotel; it felt like a5-star one.

My room (which I shared with Eugene) felt like a suite as well.

A living room, a bedroom, 2 TVs, and a luxurious bathroom with shower and bathtub.

The best thing was a glorious view of the Patronas Twin Towers from our room.

We didn't stay for long; we left shortly after keeping our stuff in the hotel.

We then went back to Times Square for our lunch.

We wanted to dine in at Papa John's Pizza, but the service and attention we got was horrible.

Then, we went to Kenny Rogers Roasters, where I had chicken spaghetti.

They had complimentary muffins for their meals, which I thought was funny.

The spaghetti smelled funny, but the taste was okay.

After lunch, we walked around the mall for a bit.

Times Square was interesting because it actually had a roller-coaster IN the mall itself.

While walking, we can feel the trembling of the building from the roller-coaster.

I was thinking it'd be a total disaster if the roller-coaster malfunctions.

Walked about for an hour or two, then we went to KLCC Mall to meet Wenrong.

Reached the mall, and met with Wenrong after a while.

She hadn't eaten, so we went to a Japanese restaurant, Nippon Tei.

Apart from Wenrong and I, the rest all ate salads.

I ordered chicken katsu meal for some reason.

It turned out to be awesome; it was delicious.

It was different from the chicken katsu I ate in school; here, it was chicken curry.

The chicken katsu there is chicken in steamed egg, and the taste was fantastic.

We talked a lot, interrupted by the intermittent squealing of a boy sitting near us.

After the meal, we went to Kinokuniya, and looked around.

They had a whole section of the shop dedicated to Japanese books/magazines, which was interesting.

I walked around, but couldn't understand a thing haha.

At about 9pm, we started making our way back to the hotel so we could make the Uruguay-Korea match.

Angela supported Korea and even wore a Korean T-shirt after she showered haha.

Sadly, she didn't get to celebrate much for Korea lost 2-1.

Wenrong didn't feel well, so she went to rest early.

We had some beer, then went to skybar for a short tour.

After that, we rested for the night at about 2am.

At about 9.30am, we went to San Francisco Coffee @ KLCC to have breakfast.

I had omelette meal, it was good.

We shopped a bit for Eugene's bag then prepared to check out.

We checked out at 12.15pm, then we took a cab to Times Square to register for the bus.

As it was too early, we made our way to A&W for lunch.

It was nostalgic, because I haven't seen A&Ws since primary school.

The chicken burger didn't look appetizing at all, but the curly fries brought back fond memories.

The bus ride on the way back was somewhat eventful.

The bus kept stopping at the road shoulder in the expressway due to a leakage, and they had to fix it repeatedly.

We were afraid we will not make the Germany-England match in time haha.

It was a slack trip, but I enjoyed the company.

I think we only ate and slacked throughout our stay, but we had fun.

England lost 4-1 tonight, which was a disappointment.

David 'Calamity' James lived up to his nickname, Frank Lampard's goal should have stood.

Nevertheless, there can be no complaints; Germany was the better team on the day.

Au Memoirs

2010-06-20T16:09:00.003+08:00

Looked back at the videos that I have done in last semester's DMA and Creative Concepts modules,

And it brought back fond memories.

Sure, it was not easy, but it was fulfilling to see the product at the end.

More importantly, I think we really enjoyed the process of making the video.

I wished my course had more of such stuff.

A belated kudos to the teams I was with in the production of the videos.

You guys did a great job =D.

Watched 'The Karate Kid' on Friday with Liqing and her sister.

For those who have not watched it, GO DO IT!

It's simply an amazing film, very touching yet funny.

It made me feel like going to China and run up and down the Great Wall everyday o_o.

Had another tune, so I wrote my 2nd song in a week.
The backdrop of this song is that the guy is going to meet his girlfriend to reconcile with her.

They had an argument and fell out because of it, and he felt his life is not the same without her.

Sadly, when he reached there, she got involved in a car accident.

He wanted to make it up to her, but never got the chance to.

I just wanted to bring across the message that

"Arguments happen, but let your loved ones know how you feel before it's too late."

No More Chance

Sitting at the backseat, watching cars pass by

It feels like life is moving away from me

And that I'm losing everything

Out of the window, watching rain fall down

The fire in me is suffocating fast

Like I am running out of time

Who can I turn to?

Is there a place to hide?

Oh, give me strength to pick up on my life

(chorus)

I saw my future and it's a lonely world without you

I wonder what I can do to make it right

I'll repair the wounds and heal up all the scars that you've got

I'll do anything to right the wrongs this time

Just give me a chance

Reached my destination, got out of the car

The moment I anticipated is right here

I'm almost scared out of my wits

Then I saw you, lying on the road

You're holding the letter that I wrote to you

I couldn't believe my own eyes

You whispered to me

Telling me to stay strong

Oh, tell me this isn't real, it's just a dream

Oh, please

(chorus)

I saw my future and it's a lonely world without you

I know there's nothing I can do to make it right

I'd repair the wounds and heal up all the scars that you've got

But I don't think that's enough to bring you back

I guess I've no more chance

Oh oh, I guess I've no more chance

I won't see you no more

I'm gonna miss you so

Hey girl, if you're listening

I wanna say this to you

I love you from the bottom of my heart

I'm sorry for what I've done

A Cold Day

2010-06-17T12:25:00.002+08:00

It's another cold day, at least for me.
I am wearing my jacket at home, because I'm feeling the shivers.

I don't have a fever or anything, no flu, but just felt cold.

So I decided to give school a miss today, and stayed at home to rest.

Yesterday was one of the longest and wettest showers in Singapore yet in a long while.

Unfortunately, it had to happen when we are having a field trip for Drawing module.

That meant we could barely see anything, much less draw.

We went to Clarke Quay, a shelter near Central Mall, to draw buildings.

Due to torrential rain, all of us were drenched to the bone.

I went through a 'waterfall' 3 times while helping my friends who didn't have umbrellas.

That probably explains the chills I'm experiencing now.

The rain finally trickled to a drizzle after 2hrs, but it never stopped until the late afternoon.

Therefore, travelling around was not easy; we had to brave through the drizzling.

I didn't really do much during the trip, partly because the situation was hardly conducive.

However, I did see some nice buildings (sad because I don't know their names).

After going home, I was so drained I went to bed at 3.30pm.
I had a -long- dreamless sleep until 10.30pm, when I woke up and realized the time.

I haven't done my RJ and re-drawing yet zzz.

I finally completed my sketch at 2.30am o_o.

And it was one of the best sketches I have done in my life, seriously.

I am very proud of it ^_^.

During the bus ride yesterday, I had some inspiration for some lyrics, so I jotted it down.

Today, while having breakfast, I decided to write a song, and a tune came into my head.

I didn't use the lyrics I wrote down yesterday for this song though.
I will find some other use for them =).

This is probably the final version of the lyrics (won't be making much changes, if at all).

Shooting Star

(verse 1)

I wanna say that I love you

I wanna say that I miss you

Even if it's for a day

Even if you're not here

I wanna say, you're beautiful

I wanna say, you're irreplaceable

Even if you already knew

Even if you are gone

(chorus)

And I wish that time would stop

So you and I'll be fine

And I wanna hold you tight

Keep you safe from harm

(verse 2)

Tell me how to keep you here

Tell me how to make you stay

So that I won't be afraid

Even if it won't last

I wanna see, you and I are one

I wanna see it coming true

So that I can make it right

Even if it's just a dream

(chorus)

I see a shooting star

So I will wish for us

And I want this moment to

Last forever more

(bridge)

You and I are meant to be

So then why do you not see

If I could, I will show

You my heart, then you'll know

(chorus)

I wish that time would stop

So you and I'll be fine

And I wanna hold you tight

Keep you safe from harm

I see a shooting star

So I will wish for us

And I want this moment to

Last forever more

Oh oh, woo oh woo oh, woo oh woo oh

Uh oh woo oh woo oh, woo oh woo oh

Ohh

Unpleasantries

2010-06-11T01:07:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I blogged, but I felt compelled to today.

I felt challenged; my ideals felt challenged.

If I ever thought that I was not serious in my music, if I ever thought that I'll accomplish nothing;

I would not have done it at all.

If I was ever half-hearted in anything I do, if I don't have my sights on the things I love doing,

I will not be here in the first place.

Don't assume you know me; you don't know anything about me.

Don't assume you are always right; I may be in the wrong, but that doesn't make you right.

I may not be crying, but that doesn't mean I'm not hurt.

I may appear nonchalant, but that doesn't mean I don't care.

Please everyone I will, but I cannot please myself.

Please everyone I cannot, and I cannot please myself.

Anguished and pained I am, disappointed and lost is my heart.

Upset and demoralized I feel, distant and faithless I become.

Foe I don't want to be, friend I want to have.

Love I don't really need, care I really want to share.

Think before you do, heart before your head.

Friendship I don't want to lose, enmity I don't want to gain.

Peace.

The Way You Are

2010-05-30T14:55:00.002+08:00

Remade the song which I initially put on Facebook.

The original intention of the song was to tell all my friends that,

I love them for who they are internally regardless of how they are externally.

In the latest version, I made it into another love song (ya I know I know, I'm just being me =p).

It talks about one who's in love, and really wants to tell his love of his feelings.

The Way You Are

I love the way you are

(verse 1)

站在爱情的边境我心里都是你

我想的每个画面你是我的唯一

我好想站在你面前看着那美丽双眼

拿起勇气想要对你说我要对你说

Oh baby

(chorus)

I love the way you look

I don't care what they say

I love the way you are

And that's all that matters, me and you

(verse 2)

站在窗旁看风景想你我的过去

我第一次看到你就深深爱上你

我想要在你的左右永远一直守护你

然后牵着你手对你说我会对你说

(chorus)

I love the way you look

I don't care what they say

I love the way you are

And that's all that matters, me and you

I love the way you look

I don't care what they say

I love the way you are

And that's all that matters, me and you

I love the way you look

I don't care what they say

I love the way you are

And that's all that matters, me and you

That's all that matters, me and you

I love the way you are

Holidays

2010-05-27T12:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of the holidays!

Honestly, I needed it.

If just to recharge my batteries.

I do not think I felt this tired last year.

It's not that the modules are harder, there are just more things to do.

During the holidays, I want to finish making a song.
A full tangible song, not just a tune in my head.

I already have an idea of what I am going to do, so hopefully I can do it.

I do not really have plans for the holidays, apart from a 2-day CE workshop.

I may be going to Genting, but it is not set in stone yet.
Hopefully, I can learn a lot of things during this period of time.

I'm also in the process of writing another song.

I have posted it on my Facebook, but I will be making adjustments to it.

After a long thought, I do not think that I can rap, lol.

So I am going to cut away the rapping part of the song.

Bored

2010-05-14T15:53:00.004+08:00

I'm in class now, waiting for UT to start.

It is History of the Arts, and I have no idea how to study for it.

My class is playing DoTA (boring game), and I'm stoning.

ID was fun.

We were supposed to come up with a bag to put things in.

We decided to come up with a full-body suit that you can put your things in.

We have a spectacle pouch, a camera pouch and even lens.

We even had slots for a Macbook Pro and an iPad. Haha.

I totally looked like Ironman 3. I will put up the pictures if I get it.

Interesting Animations

2010-05-11T23:18:00.003+08:00

I'm going to share with you some interesting animations which I came across today.

The first one was first shared by Lulu, aptly called 'Kiwi!'.

I love the idea of this animation, because it has a very deep meaning to the story.

Initially, you would not know what is happening in the video.

However, as the animation fleshes out, the realization dawns on you.

Eventually, a sad end to the story, but a touching one.

The second one that I am going to share is one called 'One Minute Fly'.

It talks about a fly that can only live for a minute, so it dashes about trying to complete everything it can.

It also has a touching story, and following the fly's journey is like a roller-coaster ride.

Like the animation before, it has a sad, but touching ending.

The last video that I am going to share is one called 'Fallen'.

This details the fall of an asteroid from outer space on Earth.

It makes you think about the life process in general, from birth, enjoyment in life, to death and acceptance of it.

It again has a deep meaning to it, and it has people thinking about making the best out of life.

Wherever they are, however they are.

From the three animations, I have realized something.

A piece of good work does not have to be superbly done; the animations were all simply done.

However, if the message is meaningful and deep, the work will be loved.

Sporty!

2010-05-05T01:12:00.002+08:00

Bowling frenzy!

Kaito, Nigel and I went to the Bowling IG trials on Sunday.

It was at Yishun SAFRA, and we were somewhat lost heading there.

Good thing there was a neighbourhood map near the bus-stop that we dropped off.

We were able to find our way from there on.

I brought my gloves and shoes, but not the bowling ball.

I didn't want to lug around a 13 pound ball around, especially without a trolley.

To think of it, it would have been more of a hassle if I had a trolley.

We were given 3 games each, and there were plenty of people going for the trials.

Some were really good, and had really good posture.

I threw a 3-game average of 113, which was pretty decent for using a house ball.

I believed I barely missed the cut (again lol).

It's ok for me though, I just wanted to have fun with my friends.

And we did have fun, so it was all good.

Had a cold today, so decided to stay home for Tuesday.

However, it didn't stop me from going bowling lol.

I went with my elder brother, who asked me last minute.

I was initially not used to my ball, because of Sunday gg.

Eventually, I warmed up to it, and threw consecutive games of 146, 164 and 154.

I ended the day with a 122, and I think I would have made the cut with these scores haha.

My brother was pro, was shooting air for all the rounds.

Then, on the last game, he scored a 200 -_-.

Saving the best for last huh~.

This semester's modules seem... chim.

I think I need to do more homework and preparation than last year in order to do well.

Especially Art of Story and History of Arts, I'm still confuzzled by them @_@.

Priority Report

2010-04-29T00:03:00.002+08:00

This week has been very happening.

First of all, I got selected for the Japanese Language module!

I was very surprised, because I was the 107th student to sign up, so I didn't expect myself to be selected.

Moreover, I got the email very late, so I thought I didn't stand a chance before.

Now, I have to fork out another $120 for the 2-semester module.

6 UTs per semester woo~, got to work harder!

I went for the cue sports IG trials yesterday.

It was a hilarious start to the trial.

Skyph and I did not know where to meet, so we sat at the benches at the Sports Complex.

Many people were there, but we do not know if they were actually there for the trial or not.

After waiting a long while, I decided to call the head of the IG.

I used Skyph's handphone to call him (Eugene).

Turns out, Eugene was only sitting across from me, on the other side of the table.

Hahaha, and the thing is, Eugene and I didn't even notice we were talking to each other.

I only found out when Skyph told me about it. I immediately excused myself and hung up.

Eugene had a funny look at his handphone to see what number it was.

Lol.

We were asked to do certain shots, and they will see how many of those shots were missed.

I missed one long shot, which was a shame, because it was quite a simple shot.
I over-cut the shot; at least I tried?

I heard the cut-off was 0 misses, so I guess my chances are slim. Oh well.

Today, on my way to school, I saw a particularly disturbing scene on the LRT train.

At South View station, an elderly lady, looked to be in her 60s and hunch-backed, boarded.

No one in the train offered her a seat, apart from an elderly man in his 60s as well.

Granted there was an empty seat; granted it was only one stop to CCK.

The very notion that an elderly person has to give up his seat to another elderly just shows how inconsiderate we Singaporeans are.

What kind of education have we been teaching to the people in Singapore?

Do we not have values any more? Are we really that 'kiasu', that selfish?

Yes, the old lady declined the seat, citing the one stop as the reason.

However, is the gesture of offering the seat that hard?

On to brighter things.

Today's drawing was quite fun, if not simple (at least for me).

We were asked to draw one-point, two-point and three-point perspective works.

I liked it, and I actually taught a few others as well how to draw them o_o.

Me, teaching art. Haha. The irony.

Skyph, duan, kaito, Isaac and I went to Swenson's to eat after school.

The service there was absolutely horrible, to say the least.

There were so many waiters/waitresses, but they took a long time tending to the customers.

The food was slow. The waiters/waitresses were unresponsive.

One of them did not even know what the dishes were when he served us.

I do not think I will eat there again. Not after today.

下雨天

2010-04-25T01:43:00.009+08:00

Finally finished the song, added the final touches to it.

Spent quite a while finding the lyrics to the last verse.

I don't update this blog with my latest songs anymore.

They go to my other blog @ http://portfolio-highflyer.blogspot.com/.

So drop by!

Oh, before I forget, happy birthday to Jessie again!

Already wished her le, but still =)

May you...

- Do well for your singing competition! All the best on the 29th!

- Do well for your video competition! If you are still doing it that is, no news since you first told me =)

- Maintain your 3.0 GPA, or better still, go higher! You can do it!

Speaking of which, I really need to start coming up with the tune for your song =x.

下雨天

(verse 1)

下雨天让我心情一直都湿透

让我不知不觉的想你

雨天后来的应该是温暖晴天

但我的思念依然还在

(chorus)

像着走过的沙滩脑海有你的脚步

你给我的每个记忆太深刻

依然难忘的笑容那么甜蜜和灿烂

让我的心中还依然温暖的

(verse 2)

下雨天就是剧里分手的时候

但也是最浪漫的时候

雨天后希望能够把寂寞带走

让我能勇敢往前直走

(chorus)

像着窗外的雨滴脑海有你的痕迹

你给我的每个记忆太深刻

虽然还是想念着虽有很多的不舍

你将会是我这生中的唯一

(verse 3)

下雨天已经是第二十个雨天

在当你离开我的时候

我知道你心里已有他没有我

就当是你给了我自由

[English translation]

Rainy Day

rainy days make me feel down

makes me think of you unknowingly

after the rain, there should be warm sunshine

but my yearning for you still exists

(chorus)

like the beach just walked, my reminiscence has your footprints

the many memories you have given me are etched too deep

the still-unforgettable smile, so sweet and radiant

continues to make my heart warm and fuzzy

rainy day is the time couples break up in films

but can also be the most romantic scenes

after the rain, hopefully the loneliness will go away

so that i can bravely march on in my life

(chorus)

like the raindrops on the window, my reminiscence has traces of you

the many memories you have given me are etched too deep

although i'm still missing you, albeit with many regrets

you will forever be my only one

rainy day, this is the twentieth one

since the day you left me

i know deep down, you no longer have me but him in your heart

so i'll just take that you have set me free

RJ, RJ and more RJs

2010-04-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

"What insights did you gain today?"

I'm so tired of this question =/

Been answering this question for the 4th time in 6 lessons today.

I stared at the question for 2hrs today, before deciding to write something out.

I don't mind harder questions, but answering the same question over and over kills my mood >_<.

There was pandemonium in my class today.

A friend of mine was so outspoken about his biases, it cracked everyone up.

I went with Nigel and his groupmates to Ang Mo Kio during lunchtime, as part of the lesson.

My group didn't want to make the trip, so I piggy-backed =D.

It wasn't a bad trip, only that it was super hot.

I was sweating buckets by the time we were done observing people in the MRT trains.

I don't know about this class, but I don't have a personal affinity for this class.

This class is so different from the other classes that I have been in.

Is there really a need to make such a fuss over 'A' grades in the modules?

I don't deny it, but I don't gloat about it either, so why bother me?

Personally, I don't care, so I'm writing here and now that nothing anyone says can affect my feelings.

Like I said previously, I want to learn everything I can, so don't fault me for trying my best.

A week...

2010-04-22T00:00:00.003+08:00

A week has gone, and slowly but surely, I have blended into my new class.

I think the class has come together faster than last year's classes that I was in, for various reasons.

Is it a good thing? Definitely, because it helps in the environment that we are in.

However, I do not feel the same bond that I have had with my previous classmates.

Maybe not yet? Hopefully.

I have not been blogging much (as with most other bloggers that I know, lol).

Since school has restarted, I should blog more often than not, because I should have less distractions.

A shame that we still do not really have game design courses, but I am going to learn everything I can.

I have been asking fervently from SIT students to send their problem materials to me.

I want to make full use of my time here, because I am already behind time.

I want to make up for it as best as I can.

Learn, absorb, teach. This is and has been my mantra for my time in RP.

If I can teach and people can understand, that means I have internalized what I have learnt.

There's so many things I want to do, and things I want to achieve.
I still want to be able to compose tunes, and not have them revolving only in my head.

I want to come up with games, even if it is a simple game.

I want to train physically on a regular basis, play soccer to keep myself fit.

I feel so helpless, so overwhelmed.

Am I aiming too high?

Here's a song I've yet to complete.

It was written because it was raining a lot last week and early this week.
I felt compelled to write a song on the weather.

And, I couldn't sleep that night.

下雨天

(verse 1)

下雨天让我心情一直都湿透

让我不知不觉的想你

雨天后来的应该是温暖晴天

但我的思念依然还在

(chorus)

像着走过的沙滩脑海有你的脚步

你给我的每个记忆太深刻

依然难忘的笑容那么甜蜜和灿烂

让我的心中还依然温暖的

(verse 2)

下雨天就是剧里分手的时候

但也是最浪漫的时候

雨天后希望能够把寂寞带走

让我能勇敢往前直走

(chorus)

想着窗外的雨滴脑海有你的痕迹

你给我的每个记忆太深刻

虽然还是想念着虽有很多的不舍

你将会是我这生中的唯一

我依深爱着你

2010-04-12T22:44:00.004+08:00

Ok, so here is the song I've submitted to the NTU Chinese Songwriting Competition 2010.

Took a while, was even thinking of the lyrics while on holiday in Malaysia haha.

It is a Chinese song obviously, so I will post the English translation in a later date as I usually do.

I would like to dedicate this song to my first love (who will not see this post obviously).
This is my way of saying I still haven't forgotten her, and she will always hold a special place in my heart.

我依深爱着你

(verse 1)

在没有你的黑夜里我无法呼吸

在想念你的那梦里我还是没注意

在失去你的宇宙里我已无勇气

在认识你的这段里我没有点忧郁

我提醒自己我还没忘记

你对我的好你给我的美

(chorus)

为什么我就是那么傻总让你哭泣

让你伤心

难道我从此就要离去我真的会舍不得你

这已不重要我依深爱着你

(verse 2)

你的日子过的好吗我每天想着

想着与你过的时光我就无法自拔

希望你会过的潇洒我还是满足

为我们有过的爱情画下一个句点

我提醒自己我不会忘记

你对我的好你给我的美

(chorus)

为什么我当时那么傻总让你哭泣

让你伤心

难道我从此就要离去我真的会舍不得你

这已不重要我会想念着

(bridge)

在认识了你是我最美丽的回忆

那段你和我拥有的近距离没有人可以替代

(chorus)

为什么我当时那么傻总让你哭泣

让你伤心

虽然我从此就要离去我真的会舍不得你

这已不重要我依深爱着你

(the end)

[English translation]

Still Deeply In Love With You

in the nights without you by my side, i couldn't breathe

in the dreams where i'm thinking about you, i still didn't realize your importance

in this universe where i lost you, i have no more courage

in the period that i knew you, i didn't have any worries

i keep reminding myself, i have not forgotten

how well you treated me, the beautiful memories you gave me

(chorus)

why am i so silly to always make you cry

to make you sad

do i really have to leave, i will really miss you

but this is no longer important, because i am still deeply in love with you

how have your days been, i keep thinking

thinking about the days we had, makes me uncontrollably sad

hope you will be happy, i will be contented

to draw an end to the relationship that we used to have

i keep reminding myself, i will never forget

how well you treated me, the beautiful memories you gave me

(chorus)

why was i so silly to always make you cry

to make you sad

do i really have to leave, i will really miss you

but this is no longer important, because i am still deeply miss you

knowing you has been the best thing that has happened in my life

no one can replace the closeness (bond) between you and me

(chorus)

why was i so silly to always make you cry

to make you sad

although i will have to leave, i will really miss you

but this is no longer important, because i am still deeply in love with you

Songwriting

2010-03-26T04:13:00.002+08:00

A song yet to be completed.

Will update again when it is done, it's 4.14am now and I am tired zZzZz

在没有你的黑夜里我无法呼吸

在想念你的那梦里我还是没注意

在失去你的那场地我已无勇气

在认识你的这段里我没有点忧郁

我提醒自己我还没忘记

你对我的好你给我的美

Two In A Row

2010-03-07T14:15:00.003+08:00

Another song!

I had Green Day in mind when I wrote this song, their type of music.

Sing Sing

It was early on a Saturday morning

I called you 6 times but you never picked up

I'm getting tired, I am so sick of this

You're never there

I've had enough

It used to be so lovely, used to be perfect

So why do we have to end up like this

I've done nothing wrong, I don't think I deserve this

You're not repentent

I'm going home, oh~

(chorus)

Sing, sing, a song about the love that we had

Thinking how it could have been

Sing, sing, a lullaby that I can sleep with

Hoping I can forget about everything

6 months on, you called me out of the blue

You want to meet for a drink at the bar

I didn't know what to do or say

Is this for real?

Are you still there?

I don't know where you wanna go with this

Do you think that we can get back together

After all that you have done to me

I guess it's true

It's really over, oh~

(chorus)

Sing, sing, a song about the love that we had

Thinking how it could have been

Sing, sing, a lullaby that I can sleep with

Hoping I can forget about everything

You know, you used to be the love of my life

But now I'm here, strumming my guitar

(chorus)

Sing, sing, a song about the love that we had

Thinking how it could have been

Sing, sing, a lullaby that I can sleep with

Hoping I can forget about everything

Sing, sing, a song for the heartbroken

Thinking it's a matter of time

Sing, sing, a lullaby that I can sleep with

Hoping I can forget about everything

Long Long Time

2010-03-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I blogged about the happenings.

I've been wanting to, but I got lazy when I thought about it haha.

This holiday has been a good enjoyable one for me.

I thought about working part-time, but I didn't end up looking for one.

Instead, I had a lot of fun spending time with my friends.

The JC class gathering at Northpoint, getting together with them is always great.

We are going on a short weekend trip end-March/early-April, that will be awesome.

W47P people, what can I say, you guys are a cracking bunch.

We never fail to have retarded moments.

Sakae Sushi was fantastic (though mad full), the BBQ was awesome.

Thanks Isaac for organizing it, although we were a little short of people who attended.

I am happy to say, I converted my bank debt into a personal debt lol.

So now, I have more breathing space in terms of finances =D.

Of course, I will still have to find a job soon to get those money coming in.

Lastly, my heart goes out to Aaron Ramsey with his recent injury.

Such a young talented player with such a horrific injury is sad to see.

I wish him a speedy recovery, and may him be back to the player he was this season soon.

Processing...

2010-02-28T09:57:00.002+08:00

" We are currently processing your grades now. Please check the website again later. Thank you. "

Ahhhhh, so excited lol.

I think I will not do well for one or two modules =(.

I can hope for the best though!

Completed

2010-02-18T11:12:00.003+08:00

finally finished the song, it's been two months in the making.

I first got the tune two months, back in December, but have been struggling to find the lyrics.

Chinese songs are always a challenge for me, due to my limited vocabulary.

Besides, there are a lot of lyrics to this song.

In addition to the lyrics, I also challenged myself particularly when writing this song.

This is my first 'duet', so there is a female part to the song.

So I had to think from a female perspective when writing the part haha.

I had to seek a little help from Lu Pin haha =x.

So here goes, the full lyrics to 等待.

等待

[男] 等待着你的依靠

温暖着我的肩膀

你说这一幕多浪漫让我无法自拔

处处感到满足

等待着你的美貌

融化了我的胸膛

看着你睡着的时候知你在我身旁

让我带着微笑

(chorus)

如果我们在同一个地方

紧握着手，紧呵护着对方

如果我们在同样的草原奔跑

若你愿我背你跑

[女] 等待着你的外套

低档着寒风就好

你坐我身旁的时候望着远处的空

愿着时间逗留

等待着你的微笑

打开了我的心房

听着那动人的歌声知你真的爱我

让我充满期待

(chorus)

如果我们在同一个地方

紧握着手，紧呵护着对方

如果我们在同样的草原奔跑

若你愿我让你背

[合] 如果我们在同一个地方

紧握着手，紧呵护着对方

如果我们在同样的草原奔跑

愿我们一起到老

[English translation]

Waiting

[male] waiting for you to rely on me

to make my shoulders feel warm

you say this scene is so touching, makes me uncontrollably

feel contented whatever i do

waiting for your beauty

to melt my once-unwavering heart

watching you while you sleep, just the knowledge that you are here with you

brings a smile to my face

(chorus)

if we are ever together in the same remote place

hold my hands tightly, and we'll protect each other from harm

if we are ever running away on the same field

if you're willing, i'll carry you and run

[female] waiting for you to give me your jacket

if just to block out the chilling wind

when you're sitting next to me, watching the distant sky

wishing that time will linger a little more

waiting for your smile

to open up my once-unmoveable heart

listening to your singing, knowing that you love me

makes me filled with anticipation about our future

(chorus)

if we are ever together in the same remote place

hold my hands tightly, and we'll protect each other from harm

if we are ever running away on the same field

if you're willing, i'll let you carry me

[both]if we are ever together in the same remote place

hold my hands tightly, and we'll protect each other from harm

if we are ever running away on the same field

hope we will grow old together

等待

2010-02-11T01:08:00.003+08:00

等待

等待着你的依靠

温暖着我的肩膀

你说这一幕多浪漫让我无法自拔

处处感到满足

等待着你的美貌

融化了我的胸膛

望着你睡着的时候知你在我身旁

让我带着微笑

-to be continued-

English translation:

waiting for you to lean on me

to make my shoulders feel warm

you say this scene is so touching, makes me uncontrollably

feel contented whatever i do

waiting for your beauty

to melt my once-unwavering heart

watching over you while you sleep, knowing that you are here with me

makes me smile wherever i go

Portfolio

2010-02-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

http://portfolio-highflyer.blogspot.com/

Time to keep a portfolio I guess?
Nothing is on game design yet, though I hope to start soon =)

Sadly, if my calculations serve me right, my Creative Concepts module grade is B+ maximum.

This is regardless of the grade for UT3... I will still work hard for the UT I guess.
It's the least I can do.

Communication Practice and Entrepreneurship down, 3 papers to go.

I feel confident for the two that are already done, ample preparation for both.

However, I feel slack for Cognitive Processes =/.

And, I'm edgy about Creative Concepts (phobia).

The next 2 days will be of significant importance...

Eventful, Emo

2010-02-04T23:04:00.003+08:00

I have been pretty much the bad boy this week.

I partial-ed on Monday and Wednesday, prompting gasps from my class haha.

"What, Biyuan is actually partial-ing classes?"

Hey now, even robots have to rest you know, much less me.

This week was the worst time to be preparing for my understanding tests.

My house is undergoing renovation works, as some of you already know.
Therefore, my room has become a temporary storeroom, with no wired internet until today.

I could barely do my RJs as it is, much less revise for anything.

That said, I'm 90% prepared for my Communication Practice UT on Saturday.

I am going to start on Entrepreneurship and Creative Concepts tomorrow.

Today, I had a bad start to the day.

The LRT malfunctioned (more information over at Kaiwen's blog, kkthx),

so I had to walk to the MRT station, which took me 10 minutes.

I thought I could go to school early to settle myself for the class.

Turns out, something happens every time I do that this semester.

Then during the day itself, someone in particular did something really silly to me.
I am going to do something never done before on my blog ever, and name him out.

Nagi, you have a serious temper issue, and I am not kidding.

I am not sure if you have family problems (and I am only going as far as here),

but do not ever vent it out on your friends, especially your classmates.

You probably do not care if you have no friends in this class, but with this attitude of yours,

it will be too late to find that you are pathetic when you realize you have no friends at all.

I am not angry with you for writing whatever-you-did on my neck with a marker.

Ink can be washed away easily.

However, I am -not- happy with you punching Bo Nian on the chest.
It was uncalled for, and it was unnecessary, and he did not even do shit to you.

I think it is time for you to reflect about yourself, and change for the better.

I am saying this because I am still your friend, even with all the shit you did.

Just yesterday, you were asking to create games together with me,

and today, you are here trying to piss me off?

What kind of friend would do that, I mean really?

I could take you on if I wanted to, but I do not need to be experienced to know that
I do not need to rely on brute force to beat you.

So here's a piece of advice for you: Change.

To steal off a title from a Communication Practice problem: Pause-Reflect-Respond.

Please do, before you do more damage to yourself than to others.

如果

2010-01-31T01:22:00.008+08:00

It has been a great weekend for me, since a lot of sports were involved.

Firstly, I had a great day at the trade show on Friday.

I thought my team did great considering our lack of preparation in terms of decor.

We showed lots of character and unity to get everything set up properly.

I would post up pictures, but that will have to wait until I get them.

Siti and I were on the way home when I got an SMS.

It turned out Jessie wanted to study with me at the library lol.

Oops, and I missed her call (as usual).

Saturday was spent at home, for the most part anyway.

I went jogging at 8pm, my first in a few months.

I needed to gain back my stamina and fitness, in preparation for the upcoming IPPT.

After which, I bathed and sat down to watch 'Kung Fu Dunk'.

I watched a bit of the ending before, but never the full movie.

It was nice seeing Jay Chou, though the storyline was mediocre at best haha.

After the movie, I sat down to write the following Chinese song, my first ever.

It took me 2 1/2 hours, way longer than I would take to write an English song.

This is due to the fact that I am so poor in Chinese, and it takes more coordination.

Sunday was another great day, because I played table tennis with my younger brother.

It was a last minute decision (he is also super-enthusiastic about working out recently).

So, we had a great work-out, though my legs are suffering right about now.

We almost did not make it home, because at the end, we made a bet.

We will need to hit 50 consecutive shots, before we can go home.

Due to several (and I mean a lot) interruptions, we barely made it.
We made it at the last attempt, haha.

Last week of school, then it is UT week.
I have a feeling I am going to miss this class, a lot.

We have had our ups and downs, but the camaraderie of this class has been excellent.

Though I am not in any clique, I am able to communicate well with most of my classmates.

There will be people I miss a lot, some less but still be remembered.

I think since most of us will be taking the same modules, I will be seeing some again for sure.

In the meantime, I can only wish you all the best for the upcoming UT3.

如果

此时此刻回忆起和你的时光

漫长的夜里陪你一起漫步

和你谈天让我的晚上充满色彩

希望你的未来会幸福和美满

我常常问他人他看上你那一点

而现在我在问我自己同样的一个问题

(chorus)

如果喜欢你的人是我你有什么反应

如果我不说的话你会不会就此离去

我好想对你说你是我的唯一彩虹

但是我不希望应此而失去全世界

如果追求你的人是我你是否会快乐

如果我退后的话你会不会伤心难过

我到了这时候还是为了你而困扰

所以我只能够一直在这反复问着

如果。。。

在教室里喜欢坐在你的身旁

教着你读书回答你的问题

看你自责同时也看到你的可爱

使我不知不觉就深深爱上你

我常常问他人他看上你那一点

而现在我在回答自己同样的一个问题

(chorus)

如果喜欢你的人是我你有什么反应

如果我不说的话你会不会就此离去

我好想对你说你是我的唯一彩虹

但是我不希望应此而失去全世界

如果追求你的人是我你是否会快乐

如果我退后的话你会不会伤心难过

我到了这时候还是为了你而困扰

所以我只能够一直在这反复问着

如果。。。

[English translation]

What If

at this moment in time, reminiscing about our past

how I walked you home at the dawn of day

enjoyed every minute of conversation with you

hope you will be happy in the near future

I always ask other people what they see in you

and now I am asking myself the same question

(chorus)

how would you react, if I am the one who likes you

if I never said anything, would you leave

I want to tell you that you are my only rainbow

but I do not want to give up the world because of it

would you be happy, if I am the one pursuing you

if I backed off, would you be sad

I am still in a dilemma because of you

that is why I keep asking myself repeatedly

what if...

in the classroom, i enjoy sitting next to you

teaching you and answering your questions

seeing the funny side of you reproaching yourself

made me fall deeply in love with you unknowingly

I always ask other people what they see in you

and now I am answering the same question I asked myself

(chorus)

how would you react, if I am the one who likes you

if I never said anything, would you leave

I want to tell you that you are my only rainbow

but I do not want to give up the world because of it

would you be happy, if I am the one pursuing you

if I backed off, would you be sad

I am still in a dilemma because of you

that is why I keep asking myself repeatedly

what if...

Chance

2010-01-28T19:15:00.002+08:00

Chance

I've never been the mainstream guy

Never been the one who stands out, from the crowd

I've never been the fall-back guy

Never been the one who makes you laugh, when you cry

I stand by your side and watch your every move

So I can be there when you fall down

I only wanna see you smile

Never wanna see the sky come down, in your world

I only wanna hear you laugh

Never wanna hear the thunderstorm, in your dream

It hurts me so much but I've to hide it from you

I hope you will forgive me, my dear

(chorus)

I know I don't stand a chance with you in this life

Wooooooo Woooooooo

I know it's hard but I still want you in my life

Wooooooo Woooooooo

It's falling apart, I'm falling deeper

Into the never-ending pit of love

It's one step too far, I cannot climb up

Now there's no way back for me, can't look back

(chorus)

I know I don't stand a chance with you in this life

Wooooooo Woooooooo

I know it's hard but I still want you in my life

Wooooooo Woooooooo

I know I should stop thinking of you here and now

Wooooooo Woooooooo

I know it's hard but I just can't live without you

Wooooooo Woooooooo

I know I don't stand a chance with you in this life

Wooooooo Woooooooo

I know it's hard but I still want you in my life

Wooooooo Woooooooo

Filling In The Blanks!

2010-01-26T22:32:00.002+08:00

Weee~ I love today's Creative Concepts lesson =D.
We were given a picture, and we were supposed to create a biography on the characters
in the picture.
Our team chose the picture of 2 Japanese girls.
This is what we came up with...
Biography

We really put in a lot of effort to come up with the background on the 2 girls.

We could probably have done better with the things they did after they met, but

due to time constraints, we had to make do with what we had haha.

On a side note, I got my pay today! Double happiness weee~

It wasn't much, since I only worked 3 weeks (barely too).

However, it is still something, and I needed the funds for various reasons haha.

Now, time to find work for the February holidays, recommendations please =D.

iPhone

2010-01-25T00:14:00.001+08:00

I totally need this app... but first I need an iPhone =(

Are there any takers for the china phone I have?

Big Bang Theory

2010-01-23T22:25:00.002+08:00

Watched Big Bang Theory for most of the day (thanks sand =D).
It is a great comedy series, couldn't stop laughing.

Sheldon and Leonard are just a great pairing together.

So, here's a song which features my 'awesome' singing.

Do you know...

2010-01-20T20:26:00.005+08:00

Do you know... that the school actually 'audits' our daily grades?

I never realised this, until today.

I was checking my Entrepreneurship daily grade for problem 12, and then I saw this...

I was like 'Uhh, what is this? I have never ever seen this before.'
So, being me, I clicked on it.

This is what popped up...

How they are going to confirm the reason given by the facilitator, I would not know.

However, this is an eye-opener for me lol.

The facilitators actually have to give justification for their grades. Hmm..

Limitations!

2010-01-19T21:46:00.003+08:00

Today's lesson was about Limitations, and how to work around it.

To be honest, I was not too interested in the topic, but I stayed.

I must admit that Jenn, Lu Pin, Ridhwan and Ezabel did a great job with their piece.

It was creative, and it certainly reflected the theme of the day well.

The theme of the day was 'Morality and Mortality'.

For the RJ, we were not given a question, so we could write anything (without limitations).

Therefore, I wrote a song as my RJ haha.

This is probably my favorite work because I have yet to write a song on anything other than love.

This song has so much social implications to it, I thought it was pretty cool.

Morality and Mortality

They always say that live and let live is the way to go (uh uh)

Yet why do countless people continue to die in the war

The blood and the tears fill the streets up with despair and pain (oh no)

We're stretched out so thin, we can't give aid to the truly needy

Why won't we stop taking the lives of the innocent?

Why can't we take a step back and breathe?

(chorus)

Draw from the past, learn from them

We don't have to make the same mistakes again

Time will tell, if we've won

History will hopefully not repeat itself

It's obvious to us that the rich are the ones getting richer (how does that work?)

But aren't the ones that needed help are the poor and the homeless

The filth and the stench fill their homes up with disease and pain (oh my)

They're stretched out so thin, they can barely make ends meet to stay alive

Why won't we start saving the lives of the innocent?

Why can't we take a step back and breathe?

(chorus)

Draw from the past, learn from them

We don't have to make the same mistakes again

Time will tell, if we've won

History will hopefully not repeat itself

Updated!

2010-01-17T22:58:00.006+08:00

Changed my blog skin! =D

I was quite lazy to do it this weekend, but I forced myself to sit down and redo the layout.

It is a bit cleaner now (white instead of black background).

I met up with my primary school classmates on Friday, for the first time in 12 years.

It was great to have finally caught up with them, after so long.

Most of the girls did not change much (looks-wise), but the guys on the other hand did.

As with most people who met up after a long while, we had to repeat our life story many times haha.

It was cool though, and I remembered things I thought I have forgotten.

We went to Waraku @ Clarke Quay Central to eat.

We originally told them we needed a table for 8, but then like 10 of us showed up lol.

After close to 2 hours, we switched to Coffee Club (?) to chat more.

Endless Time

2010-01-14T23:40:00.004+08:00

I have not written a song for a while, so here is my latest =).

I tried to remember the song that I have written halfway a while back,

but I could not remember the tune anymore >_<.

Endless Time

Dance in the snow, flying in the wind

You are as free as petals in the air

Drawn to your smile, in love with your scent

I want to be with you to the end of time

(chorus)

Oh my dear, oh my dear

Can I tell you that I love you?

Oh my love, oh my love

Will you tell me you love me too?

~~ Interlude ~~

Bask in the sun, taking in the breeze

You are as calm as palm trees by the sea

Drawn to your gaze, in love with your touch

I hope you will be there til the end of time

(chorus)

Oh my dear, oh my dear

Can I tell you that I miss you?

Oh my love, oh my love

Will you tell me you miss me too?

Oh my dear, oh my dear

Can I tell you that I need you?

Oh my love, oh my love

Will you tell me you need me too?

Lying on the beach, looking at the stars

You were beside me, still as beautiful

I hold your hand, look into your eyes

Say I'll be with you til the end of time

Communications

2010-01-13T23:09:00.005+08:00

Today's lesson was monotonous, more or less.

As with Entrepreneurship, no one barely listens to the facilitator when she is talking.

I feel that she still deserves a little bit of respect, as much as you do not like her facilitating.

I know I would not want people to ignore me when I am talking.

At the start of meeting 3, Isaac and I were the only ones left in my team.

The girls left after meeting 2, for various reasons (no hard feelings =D).

Team 2, 2-member team, totally rhymes.

Team 3, 3-member team, what's with the coincidence.

Lucky Team 1 had more than 1 member, haha.

So, on my way home after class, I had a harrowing moment.

I was buying my dinner as usual, which is the norm now.

I went to KFC (fast food zzz), and ordered the usual Zinger Meal.

Then, I reached out for my wallet to pay up.

To my horror, my wallet was NOT in my back pocket!

I was like 'OH SHIT~'.

I began scrambling to feel every pocket, nothing.

I was like 'I'm so dead, I can't pay for the meal.'

As I was looking through my bag, I was like telling the lady at the counter:

"Can I cancel the order?"

She told me to try and keep looking through the bag, which I subsequently did.

I was totally worried that I had left my wallet in school (class),

because I know there was no chance I had dropped it somewhere.

To my freaking relief, I found it in the laptop compartment of my bag.

Goodness gracious me, do not even start asking me how it got there, because I have no idea.

I never ever leave my wallet in my bag before / after lessons. Zzz...

I have been thinking / considering about certain things recently.

It is not convenient for me to disclose it here, but some of my songs can relay my feelings.

Maybe when it is time, I might just do it.

Until then, I have to valiantly move on.

If by then it is too late, then I will just attribute it to fate (or the lack of it).

I applied for the RP scholarship right on deadline day (12 Jan).

Though the money is not much (only $1,600 and 1-time only), it is something.

At least I can ease my debts with it, and it is bond-less too.

Hopefully, with holiday work coming up, I can clear my university fees in one shot.

After that, I can start saving up for my poly fees -_-'''.

Debts, such a vicious cycle.

Oh, and in before the day itself...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADI ~!~!~!~!~!~!

Drawing To A Close

2010-01-11T18:30:00.002+08:00

It's finally the end of UT2 (after what, almost 2 months?).

In a month's time, it will be UT3, and then I will say goodbye to year 1.

Time certainly flies.

I have not been watching Bleach lately, because I am busy with other things lately.

Besides, I am almost catching up with the latest episode, so I might as well slow it down.

We celebrated Keshia's birthday. Happy birthday girl~!

Close to 10 people turned up for our mini-celebration, including Nasa and Adi.

Even Joey dropped by for a short while just to wish Keshia well.

We were at TRCC, but they have not re-stocked their cakes yet.

So Beatrice and Susu had to go over to W1 to buy the cake.

It was a simple cake, but it's the thought that counts =).

We had a lot of fun and laughter today, kind of brings back memories of last semester.

I took a short video of today, the audio is like lagging behind the video though >_>.

Promise...

2010-01-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

It's a brand new year!

First day back in school (after 3 'exhausting' weeks of work), and it didn't feel like school lol.

Barely anyone was interested in what the facilitator was talking about... hmm.

A lot of us were playing Facebook, or watching drama videos.

I have no idea how, but we somehow came up with a presentation at the end.

I thought it was pretty good, just needed better flow and maybe simpler sentences haha.

Poor Skyph, even the conclusion was rough (copy-and-paste wikipedia lol).

Anyway, so here is my new year resolutions! (and things I look forward to)

1. Find more work! I need $$$! (during the holidays that is, weekends work will do too~)

2. Focus and maintain my grades for the rest of the semester! 6 more weeks to go!

3. See Leicester City in the Premier League come August! You can do it!

If Leeds can beat Man Utd, Leicester can be promoted! Gambatte!!!!

4. Learn how to make iPhone applications =).

Simple right? I am really a simple person ^_^.

I went bowling for the first time in nearly 2 months on Sunday.

Surprisingly, I did really well considering my hiatus.

189-169-142-135 were my scores (ya I know, downward decline haha).

Still an average of 160-ish, so I am happy =D

Gatherings

2009-12-27T12:31:00.002+08:00

I am exhausted, and my body is aching.

I went to Lakeside yesterday morning to play soccer with Weng Heng and his friends.

I have not exercised for months, so it was a good workout for me.
It helped that I scored quite a number of goals, puts me in good stead.

We played from 10am to like 1.30pm, and my legs were cramping up.

After that, we had lunch, but I could barely eat much.

I went home to bathe and rest up, then at 6.30pm I was invited to have a drink.

Desmond, Wenrong and her bf, and Litong was having dinner together at 7.30pm.

It was very last-minute, but I went anyway.

I reached the place at 8pm (a burger place called Fat Boys somewhere in Thomson).

The food was pretty good, and we chatted a lot.

Litong could not make it as he was busy, but Angela came.

We had some beers, then we switched to Roti Prata Place to have teh tarik.

All in all, I had a good day because I get to meet up with a lot of friends.

Christmas

2009-12-25T22:20:00.003+08:00

First of all, merry christmas!

Hope everyone had a good time, and may everyone have a great new year ahead!

On Christmas Eve, I went with Jessie and her secondary school friend to a church performance.

It was not the first time I have been to church, but it was nothing like the other visits.

The church was grand, and the performance was quite professional.

If you went into the performance hall alone, you could not tell that it was a part of the church.

I was also surprised at the number of people that turned up for the performance.

Their devotion, their faith in the religion was also quite powerful as well.

It was quite an eye-opener for me.

Speaking of faith, I think that everyone should have faith, with oneself or otherwise.

When you can place your faith in something, you can achieve great things.

When things do not go your way, you can find the strength to pick yourself up.

When you are dealt a blow, you can correct your mentality to face the past mistakes.

I placed my faith in the fact that every tomorrow will always be a better day.

As such, I can face today with renewed hope and strength.

I placed my faith in the fact that I will be able to overcome any challenge that comes my way.

As such, I can handle responsibilities that is expected of me.

I am as I am, a free-thinker, because I like to think positively.

Sure, I write 'emo' songs, and I sometimes dwell on the past, thinking what could have been.
It is all part of the learning process of life, to reflect and to learn.

I, like most people, want to enjoy life as much as I can.

The only way to do that is to look at things from the bright side.

So, the next time you fall down, do not think about how bad it hurts.

Think about how best to pick yourself up, so you do not feel more pain.

I spent the rest of Christmas Eve at Isaac's place, and had quite a lot of fun.

I had a quick BBQ dinner (they were almost done when I arrived), and took a bit too much food.

I played Rock Band on Wii, and it was a great game.

I also knew two of Isaac's friends while at his place.

At 1am Christmas day, I went to his study area to stone... literally.

They were playing Maple Story (sigh~), and I don't play that game, so I just watched.

We ate tidbits like Mamee and Twisties to keep ourselves from starving through the night.

We left his place at 7am, because if we left any later, we will have to go to church service.

It was imposed by his family, but we did not really feel like going, especially after going sleepless.

Besides, it was not mentioned earlier before, or I think no one will want to stay haha.

We had breakfast at Bukit Batok McDonalds' (love Big Breakfast Meal =D).

On reaching home, I bathed before sleeping the afternoon away =x.

Winter

2009-12-20T21:48:00.004+08:00

It is nearing Christmas!

I don't usually celebrate it, but it is a great day anyway.

Today, I spent the whole day watching Bleach ^_^.

I watched 12 episodes, and it just gets better and better.

So we finally got all our results for UT1.

It took a while (long one at that), and I am quite surprised at how my results turned out.

I still have my work cut out for me, in order to improve on my grades.

Admittedly, grades are a bit harder to get in this semester than the last.

It will be even more so from year 2 onwards, so hopefully I can cut down on the slacking.

That is questionable though o_o.

It's All About Work

2009-12-16T22:33:00.003+08:00

It's been only two days since the start of the holidays,
and it feels like it's been a week.
I finally got a job! I'm no longer unemployed and leeching the economy's money.
Special thanks to Halim for hooking me up with this job.
It's a good experience, and I hope to learn lots of stuff.
The only negative side is, it's a 5 1/2 day job.
That leaves me with basically no time to go for driving lessons.
I guess there's always next year (what I have been saying for 2 years).

I also want to compose tunes for my songs, but again, there's next year... -_-'''

I am trying to learn Yiruma - River Flows In You on the piano.
It is an awesome song, and I already learnt the first part of the song.
Only the right hand though, I am still trying to figure out the notes.
YouTube tutorials in slow motion is awesome.
I envy the people who can see the score and play the song off the bat.
I see the score and I am like 'Ok, this is going to take a while".

I am already in the market for jobs during the remaining school term.

Any recommendations and offers, please direct them my way.
Arigato.

I will leave you with a video.

It's been dubbed 'Single-handedly the best first audition.'

The One

2009-12-11T18:02:00.005+08:00

I first thought of this song while I was waiting for the bus on my way to school.
The tune came into my head, and I wrote a bit of the song when I reached class.
It was Creative Concepts day (some 2 weeks ago?), so I had no time to continue.

Today, while in the library, I decided to continue with the writing.
I was surprised that I actually remembered the tune, because I usually forget easily.
I was finally able to finish the song, and I quite like how this song turned out.

Cai Biyuan - The One

I had a dream last night
I was at the beach, stare into the sea
I saw a girl like you
Who came up to me and held out her hand

And then I ran away (and then I ran away)
And now I wish I could turn back

(chorus)
I was afraid I'm not the one
Who you belong to
I want to be the one you see
The one you kiss
Tonight

I saw you in the class
You were looking out of the window
You seemed to be in pain
Like you've been hurt so bad you stopped living

I want to talk to you (I want to talk to you)
But then I couldn't find my voice

(chorus)
I was afraid I'm not the one
Who you belong to
I want to be the one you see
The one you kiss
Today

I hope to be with you (I hope to be with you)
I guess I'll never see that day

(chorus)
I was afraid I'm not the one
Who you belong to
I want to be the one you see
The one you kiss
Right now

When Life's Too Short...

2009-12-10T18:34:00.003+08:00

The Mayonnaise Jar and Two Cups of Coffee

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not

enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and

proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.

He shook the jar slightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.

They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full.

The students responded with an unanimous "yes".

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the

entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar

represents your life. The golf balls are the important things -- your family, your children,

your health, your friends and your favorite passions -- and if everything else was lost and

only they remained, your life will still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter, like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else -- the small stuff. "If you put the sand into the jar first," he

continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the

things that are important to you."

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children.

Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities.

The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked."

"It just goes to show that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for

a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

Can I say I love this short story?

EDIT (11.56pm):

Digital Media Arts should teach stuff like this...

Coolness to the max.

Start of UT2!

2009-12-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

It's 1am and I am preparing to sleep!
I have been looping one song for the entire day.
"The Scientist" by Coldplay, simply awesome song.

UT2 is today, and hope everyone can do better this time round!
For those who did not do well or expected better, do not fret.
There are 2 more UTs to salvage your grades, as well as daily grades.
Just do better and study a bit harder! =D
For those who did well, maintain your grades!
Do not go slacking off now.

Speaking of which, I have been slacking quite a bit recently.
I am tired more often than usual, which saps my strength in class.
I need to stay focused...

Sleepless..

2009-12-06T14:22:00.002+08:00

I spent the entire night polishing up the video.
I do not really know if the song fits the video, but it was the best I can do >_>.

Nevertheless, I am quite proud of the video because it had a good storyline to it.

We also really paid a lot of attention to how we wanted to film it.

With the videos done, I can focus on everything else =x

Another Project

2009-12-05T23:39:00.009+08:00

Here I am with another video =)

This time, it is a Creative Concepts video.

We had to come up with a powerful story that will inspire Singaporean students.

As such, we decided to touch on family bonding.

This is an adapted story.

It shows a boy who had everything going for him, great at basketball, have a loving girlfriend.

He had won numerous awards with his school team at national level.

Despite his achievements, he never really got along with his father at home.

Then the accident happened, and a drunk driver crashed into him while he was crossing the road.

It took away from him his basketball future, and he was really depressed.

Thankfully, with the support of his father and his girlfriend, he manages to stay positive.

The original story was actually featured on "Tuesday Reports", a channel 8 documentary.

A girl, who was active in windsurfing along other things, had everything she wanted.

Unfortunately, one day while windsurfing, she passed out.

She was suspected to have been struck lightning.

After the accident, she could no longer walk or hold things properly.

She needed help from her family and friends to do most things.

More importantly, her boyfriend, who had only recently started seeing her, stayed by her.

This video almost did not make it, because our team took a while to 'agree' to an idea.

Nevertheless, I would like to commend my team for pulling it through.

It was not easy, but when we were down filming, it went without a hitch.

Conflicts are inevitable, but it is how we pick ourselves up that really shows our resolve.

So keep it up team =)

I am currently working on a 2nd video, this time DMA-related.

This one is harder, but I hope to find a way to best capture what the problem wants.

Ballrrrring

2009-12-01T22:57:00.003+08:00

Wow.
I never thought I will say this but...
The first 2 lessons of this week was really bad, at least for me.
I could not find any form of motivation to really do anything during the lesson.

Somehow, we managed to present something in the end but I was not really into it.

I guess Entrepreneurship and Problem Solving cannot really go together.

And tomorrow is Communication Practice, which is another killer.

It will be an interesting next 7 weeks of lessons... I hope I can survive this.

Even though the lessons were bad, the get-together after class was awesome.
I always loved hanging out with friends, even if it drains me dry when I get home.

We took a whole lot of pictures, and it did strike us that we were being vain... as guys! Haha.

I am pretty sure the number of pictures I took this year alone,

is more than the pictures I have taken in my previous 23 years of my life.

I am never one to shy away from the camera, but also not one to seek it either.

UT2 is just around the corner, and it really seemed like UT1 just ended last week.

Life seems to pass by faster than last semester, and I really need to catch up.

I need to work on my understanding of some topics, and try and answer better.

Before that...

I am off to play games =p

Long Weekend

2009-11-29T12:11:00.005+08:00

Finally a long weekend this semester!
It was a great feeling to be able to rest a bit longer.

I have been watching Life, a police drama series that is showing right now.
Except, I have the entire season, and 3 episodes away from completing Season 2.
It is an awesome drama.
It shows the perspective of a detective who has been wrongly put in jail for 12 years.
When he is finally released, he emerges enlightened by the path of Zen.
He seeks answers to who put him there while solving crimes.
The lead actor, Damien Lewis, is crazily good and the story plot is mind-boggling.
More importantly, the camera angles really tell the story well o_O.
I think everyone needs to watch this show.
Such a shame there will be no third season =(

Damien Lewis and Sarah Shahi in Life

I did another video, again from the topic from my DMA lesson.

This week's was more challenging, because we needed to sift through junk for the good videos and audio.

In addition, we need to establish a sequence and come up with a good linkage for them.

Video defects are inherent from Youtube, or maybe it is just the FLV file format.

Now to work on my songs...

I am thinking of re-doing my blog, it has been a while.

I may do it during the December holidays, who knows?